I was always told I couldn't.
Passed over in conversations.
I knew from the movies,
The warm romantics dinners.
The colourful movie night all cuddled up.
On some level I wanted that.
I wanted someone to share life,
To be excited with no matter what it was.
I didn't feel that, thought I could never.
Then I found you.
You turned my candle into a bonfire.
You are my sun lighting up this dark world.
You are my flower I can sit here and just admire.
You are my knight to help me fight when I can't anymore.
You are my angel to protect me when I am unable to.
You are my now and my forever as long as you let me.
You redefined what love was.
Yes it is commitment, and respect, and spending time.
But you showed me how much more there is.
It's not being dismissed, passed over or changed.
It's laughter, and endless talks, always hoping that's your notification.
It's safe and warm and wanted.
It's acceptance and happy and us.
Call me crazy, call me deprived, call me what you wish.
I finally feel love and feel loved with no conditions.
They always talk about love at first sight and I though that was flawed.
If younger me could see I would be jealous and skeptical.
I might be blind or not in my right mind,
But I am so willing to trade that for this feeling.
I feel young and in control with you.
You make me feel like I don't have to carry the world anymore.
Now I don't hate or avoid love but say it to you any chance I can.
It's not a requirement or a demand but I want.
I want for everything you are my amazing beloved.
Even if I can't shout it from the roof I will scream it to the void.
I love you.
