Fallen World

Chapter 5

Skateboarding was like entering another world for me, a one more careless, more carefree and without responsibilities, so one without my parents. Everybody saw that. This was how I dealt with a smoking addiction I had. Not that I don't smoke now, just occasionally when I need it.

As I was skateboarding, I saw Liam... staring at me? No, definitely not. You just want to believe it. He is just your best friend, so shut the fuck up. I had already forgot about my boyfriend and, well not completely, my sister.

It was my fault she was dead. I shouldn't have cover up for her. Maybe she would be alive. But she could have just skipped, but she knew I would get grounded for letting her.

I was lost in my thoughts and forgot I was skateboarding, so obviously I fell. However, how I fell was hilarious. The board just slipped from my legs and I fell cartoon style. Great! Now the boys were laughing at me. Fuck! My leg hurt. I walked up to them, limping.

"What's wrong?" Tom asked.
"Hurt my leg."
"Go get my board." Liam demanded.
"I can barely walk LED mind."
He laughed at the nickname. "What?"
"You know... Because you are not the brighest person, so you can have something bright on you."
"Fuck you."
"If you weren't a coward, you would do it yourself!" He scoffed and I stuck my tongue out teasingly.
"Oh my god, guys look who's coming..." Martin warned.
"My ex, his bitch girlfriend and Andrew. Just what I needed." I scoffed
"Wait what? Your ex and his bitch girlfriend? Jason and Sophia are just friends." Tom said confused.
"If friends kiss and make out at the school's front door, then yeah they are friends. Well, I'm outta here." I said.
"I need to go too. I said I would meet with Josh in 10 at his house." Martin said and he walked away.
"Have fun fucking Josh!" I shouted.
"I will!" He shouted back and we burst out laughing.
"Well, better get going. It's getting late and I don't wanna get in more trouble." I said
"I'll come with you. Bye Tom." Liam said and left Tom alone at the skateboard park.

We were walking for a solid 10 minutes in silence. He finally started talking! Thank god I couldn't bare that silence. It reminded me of my home. We hardly ever talked. And even if we did, we mostly argued.

"He is an absolute dick for cheating on you. Like what does Sophie have that you don't?"
"Last week you were checking her ass with Tom!"
"That was last week. Now she is the girlfriend of my best friend's cheater ex boyfriend. There is a difference."
I laughed. "She is the what?"
"The girlfriend of my best friend's cheater ex boyfriend." He said confused.
"How long it took you to think of that? I mean the syntax is 100% correct and you got an F at English."
"Actually, Martin was the first to mention it. I had to say it four times to learn it."

And then we fell back in silence. And we were just looking at eachother. Then we laughed. No reason. We just looked at each other and started giggling and the giggling turned into laughter. We sat on a bench to calm down. I couldn't go home like that. My dad would tell me: "How can you laugh when today your sister was killed by you? You are so heartless! You are grounded young lady!". I could almost hear him saying it.

"My belly hurts..." I said, controlling my laugh.
"Mine too. Wanna grab some ice cream?" Liam asked. He knows I can't say no to ice cream, but this time I should really go home.
"I'd love to but I really have to go home. I don't wanna be grounded...again."
"Wanna sleep over at mine? My mom would be happy to have you to "keep me in line"." He did air quotes, because we knew that I supposedly kept him in line, but in reality I just cleaned the mess afterwards.
"You know that when my father's at home I can't. He doesn't even know I'm out now. I sneaked through the window."
"Sometimes I think you like getting grounded." He chuckled and I just smiled. I took out my phone to check the time.
"Shit! It's 9! My dad knows I'm not home. I should have been at dinner half an hour." I panicked
"But why wouldn't he be more angry at you?" Liam asked.
"Well at dinner we sit all together, even if we don't talk. Especially when my dad is home."
"Ok then let's take you home. You will get in through the window." He said and we started walking again.

I arrived home and got in my room with a bit of help from Liam. My room was basically the attic so the help was really appreciated. It was the first time I realised how stupid I was for choosing the attic because, even though it has the best view and it's the biggest one, I couldn't sneak out so easily.

"Thanks, but now you gotta go..." I told Liam and before he could protest I was standing next to the window, implying that he should really go. And surprisingly that's what he did.

Now I was alone. Well my parents were home but yeah, alone. They never really bothered the "troubled kid". However there was a first time for everything.

I went down as quietly as possible to take a shower. Shit it was a big day today. I deserved a long hot shower. I saw my sister die in front of me. I had confessed to someone my shitty family problems. And before I could realise it tears were slipping down my eyes. What the fuck is wrong with me? Why all the crying today? I had never cried so much in life, mostly because of my parents belief that crying equals weakness.

I didn't even cry so much when I found out my old crush, Leah, was talking shit behind my back and pretended to be bi so she could just break my heart. Well, reasonable. My sister died. But generally what was wrong with me? Why can't I be the single bad bitch I was the last 3 years, when I learned not to care about what others think of me?

Tomorrow is gonna be a new day. Everything is going to be normal, except people staring at me, but apart from that, completely normal.

I got out of shower and started blow drying my hair. I was just finishing, when I heard a loud bang from the main door. I stood there frozen unable to move, my eyes wide. My father was home... I wasn't in my room... Good thing I was wearing my home clothes, an oversided T-shirt and a pair of shorts.

He burst through the door.

"Where were you?" He demanded to know. He demanded to know everything. But what scared me the most was that he was kinda calm. He wasn't yelling as much as he would usually.
"I... I wanted to get some fresh hair. I... I wanted to get my mind of things." I was breathing heavily, tears threatening to fall from my eyes.

His expression was harsh, like I was the thing he hated most in the world. Before I could even realise it, I went flying backwards, probably from a slap, and hit my head in the bathtub. I felt blood falling from my forehead.

"You were grounded!" And there he was again, yelling at me. After all of it. What did I ask? Was it that difficult to get a loving family? Why give me a family like that?
"I'm... I'm sorry. I... It won't happen again."
"Better not."

I stood up after a few minutes to check up on the injuries. My cheek was a bit reddish and my forehead was cut. Apart from that, I only had some scratches.

I hurried to go to my room. The longer I was in a shared room, the more possible it was something similar would happen.

I was careful not to bang my door. I didn't wanna upset my father more. And I couldn't talk to anyone about it... Wait, I do have someone. I have Liam! He doesn't know everything and I won't tell him everything, I just need him to cover up for me.

Me
Heyyyy

Liam
What? What did you do?

Me
Nooooothing.
I just need you to cover up
For me :)

Liam
You owe me

Me
Fiiiiiine