World of Poetry

My Redemption

I'll never forget this day
This day of pain
The pain of her ever going away

Just waking up
Feeling something was wrong
Ringing her phone
Not getting an answer
I couldn't hear her voice anymore

So I called
I called and I called
That feeling of being on the edge increasing
Until it stopped

I had no choice to call another
To only hear she was in the hospital
It all came crashing down
I remember waiting for her at home for hours

I hated this feeling
I hated feeling this pain
I hated feeling like the world was on my shoulder

Maybe I'll call this my Redemption
Maybe I'll call it apart of this song
Maybe I'll call it the day it all came crashing down

She shouted at me,
She was stern
But right now
I wish she could be doing the same

Only if she made a different decision
Only if she made a different choice
She's now the demon in my heart
The demon I have inside

I blamed God
I blamed him because I thought he failed me
But it soon changed
Because he does things only for the best of his children
He maybe did it to show her the truth she doesn't want to face

I want to close everyone out
But I still fail
Why do I have to experience this
I ask

Maybe maybe

Maybe this will be my Redemption
Maybe this will mend my soul
But I don't know
This has all taken a toll
Maybe this be my freedom
Maybe this will be me letting go