Sacrifices and Change

Please Let Me go

Ikki POV
Korra and Asami told me about how they were going to try to convince my parents to let me stay with them. I would want that more than anything. I honestly just can't be around my family. I'm just so confused. At the hospital, I heard my dad say that he needed to be with me, then he said he didn't have time for me. I got into the argument with my mom and Meelo, Jinora is really the only one I could be around. I really don't know why they wouldn't say yes, I mean they literally said that they didn't have extra time to tend to my basic needs.

I really didn't know when they were going to ask. I just hoped it was soon. I kept thinking about that until I realized I should probably get out of bed. Ugh. Another session of me trying to get into the bed, then falling, then crying, then finally into the wheelchair. Why was it so complicated.
"Just move legs. Stupid stupid! Why won't you move!?" I said angrily.

When I finally got to the breakfast table. It was so tense. I knew my dad knew about what I had said to my mom and Meelo. I felt bad for what I said to my mom but she wasn't listening. It felt like she never listened to me anymore. Jinora came a few seconds after I did and sat next to me. She smiled at me and I felt a lot better.

P:"So..Jinora! How's ur air bending going?"
I could tell she was trying to break the silence.
J: "It's going well, I think I'm improving a lot."
T: "You know what definitely are." He said with a nod.
I decided I was just going to stay silent.
Apparently Meelo was too.
T: "Ikki, I've noticed you don't need much help anymore."
I: "Oh um yeah. I guess I don't."
I thought he was going to mention what happened with me and Meelo but I guess not.
I: "Ive learned a lot on my He
P: "That's good Sweetie."
The rest of the breakfast was silent. It was so dead. I still Couldn't look at Meelo the same way as I did before either.

I left the table and decided I was going to go outside. I grabbed my sketch book and rolled off.

Asami POV
A: "I just don't know what to say! I mean, what do I do if Tenzin and Pema say no?! I don't think I would be able to just see Ikki rotting away in her own home!" She said sounding panicked.
K: "Sami, calm down, im sure it'll be fine! I'm sure Tenzin will say yes. Ikki even said that her parents were talking and said they didn't have much time to attend to her. "
A: "But Tenzin has always been so protective. He barely let you go to that air bending match a few years ago! You had to sneak out. You were 17!"
K: "Ugh good point. He really is the most annoying person ever sometimes, but I'll be with you."
A: "Thanks..you always know how to calm me down when I get like, that." she said with a laugh.
K: "Because I know you Samiii."
A few seconds of silence went by
K: .."Wait..How did you know about how I snuck out?"
A: "Bolin tells me everything." I winked.

Ikki POV
I started drawing a picture of a tree. It looked beautiful. I counted the amount of leaves on the tree. 6,783. It wasn't big, but it still looked really pretty. A few people were walking by and asked me questions. Sometimes I got weird looks. I guess that's one thing about now being "disabled", I didn't really mind, but it did bother me a lot when people asked "How long are you in a wheelchair for?" Because not even I knew the answer to that.

I was still wondering why my parents acted so strange. Not that it was strange that they were acting like "normal" people all of a sudden, but usually it's not like that anymore. Only when we have a guest sitting at the table with us. They don't talk to me as much anymore because they think they are going to hurt my feels by saying something wrong. Whenever we do talk and try to have a conversation, it just ends up going the wrong way. I usually just kept to myself when I wasn't with Jinora. I truly hated the way things were now. Everything feels so broken.

I saw Jinora and my dad training. He could train with her but couldn't have a conversation one on one with me. That's what always happens. He's always with Jinora. I feel like he's been with her more and more ever since I became paralyzed. "Am I really that much of a failure?!"
I guess he had to move back to his only daughter who actually had a chance at becoming an air bending master. My chances are clearly severed.
I guess over the past couple of weeks Jinora has been with my dad a lot more. That really did make me mad.

I've been sitting outside now for nearly 2 hours now. I checked my watch. 12:31 pm. I was about to roll back inside until I saw Korra and Asami. It looked like they were walking over to where my dad and Jinora were. Wow they've really been training for over 2 hours. I started going towards them but I didn't want to appear "nosy" so I kept my distance and listened.

Asami POV:
I was with Korra walking up to Tenzin. I'm really hoping he says yes. I can't stand to see Ikki sitting alone and clearly struggling. Yet nobody else sees the signs. I got Tenzins attention and he walked over.

T: "Jinora continue to practice your forms."
J: "Okay." she said sounding tired.

T: "Is there anything I can do for the two of you?"
K: "Yes actually there is."
A: "I wanted to talk to you about Ikki.."
T: "Is there something wrong with my daughter?"
K: "It's not her it's the island."
T: "What do you mean? I think the island is in great hands. What does this have to do with Ikki?"
A: "I-I just feel that Ikki really isn't doing well here Tenzin. She almost always looks miserable!"
T: "I think I'd be able to tell if my child were miserable."
K: "Clearly doing a bad job.." she whispered.
A: "You can see that poor child is breaking! She just puts on a happy face so nobody realizes!"
T: "And how exactly would you know that?"
K: "Maybe because she got to stressed to the point where she broke down and her own parents didn't comfort her!"
T: "What!? when did that happen?"
A: "You don't even know. That's the problem. I think Ikki just needs time alone., and away from her family.. Off the island..
T: "Well I think if she's having breakdowns, she needs to be even closer to her family." He said as he walked away.

Korra and I just shared a disappointed look.
A: "Oh my gosh that man is so stubborn!"
K: "Ugh tell me about it..Ikki is going to be so disappointed.
A: "No she won't because I won't stop trying until she's off this island and heals."

Ikki POV

I wasn't surprised my dad said no. He's so overprotective. More time with my family?? I could barely stand the short time I was with them.

I heard Asami and Korra talking
About how stubborn my dad was. They really weren't wrong.
I later talked to the both of them for a while. I was so happy when Asami said that she wouldn't stop trying until I was off the island. I used to wonder why Korra didn't hesitate when Asami said she would move in with her. I love my dad but I feel like he's not seeing this from my point of view.

When Dinner came, my dad was trying to start many more conversations then usual. He kept asking how I was doing over and over and I was still upset about earlier, I kind of just shut him out. I didn't want to talk to anybody really. I usually laughed with Jinora during dinner but today I wanted nothing to do with her at all. My mom was focused on feeding Rohan the entire time. I don't care about what Meelo is doing anymore. My mom told me to apologize to him but I think I need an apology. What do I have to apologize for?

T: "Ikki why are you so quiet all of a sudden?"
I just looked up and shrugged.
I: "Don't know."
T: "Don't tell me Korra and Asami got that moving thing into your head."
Pema, Jinora, and Meelo all shared a confused look.
P: "What moving thing?"
T: "Asami and Korra want Ikki to move in with them because they think she needs space."
J: "What? Ikki your leaving??" She said with a saddened tone.
I: "Well-"
T: "Nobody is going anywhere. Ikki is not moving in with Asami and Korra."
P: "When did this happen?"
T: "Earlier today."
I: "Why can't I just go?!" I shouted
T: "Your doing perfectly fine here..Ikki. You're very independent. You don't even need help you with your wheelchair, what could they possibly help you with?"

Why did he have to be this way? Right then I wish he knew the amount of struggling I have to do with my stupid wheelchair, and forcefully move these stupid useless legs that don't even work. I hate this and I hate living here.

I: "Well, maybe if I actually had attention from someone, I'd actually have a chance to prove those doctors wrong and walk again."
T: "I said No and that's final!"
I air bent a gust of wind at my dad and I rolled off and slammed my door shut.

Little did I know that would be the last time I left my room in days.