YOURS

14

hearing the pastor talking about the important of having God in the marriage, what a mass of lies, don't get me wrong, i was raised in church, is just that at this moment it don't fit properly. I look at Jonathan and he is so concentrated, like this will fix something, he is the biggest liar in this room. Once he was finish, we prayed, and we done for today. I was getting on my carriage when Jonathan came.

"What Jonathan?" i said annoyed already

"Can you please come to my place; I wish to talk about something"

"What can you possibly want"

"please" he said looking down, he was being submissive

"fine"

On my way there I just was thinking on possibles ways this could go so bad, this is the house of the big bad wolf. I arrive, look at this big house, that might be my home one day or my doom. I walked in and fast greeted by the staff. They walked me to the receiving room; Jonathan apparently was not home yet. I waited for a couple minutes but got bored, so I looked outside and nobody was around, so I just walked around the house, saw a couple paintings of the boys when they were young with Vermont. Then I saw a door semi open at the end of the hallway, I walked in and the room was covered by white blankets, I walked curious to one of the things and remove the blanket. It was a painting of a beautiful women. Who could this be? I walk to another one and remove the blanket, was a naked woman, it looked like me, I remove a couple more and I take five more and they are all me, in different poses, naked and with clothes.

"Emilia?" I hear, I turn around and Raymond entered with his hands covered in paint

"I'm sorry, i didn't wanted to come in, I was walking around and saw the door open" He just stood there like paralyzed. "I'm sorry, I think i must leave" I walked to the door but he closes it when I was there. I look at him nervous.

"I know what you must be thinking" I look at him confused. "That I'm crazy or a psychopath, but this is the only way I had to remember you each day that you were away from me, to control my needs of being close to you" he said putting his hands on each side of the wall beside me, cornering me. 

"I didn't think that" I looked at his desperation, I grabbed his face softly and pushed up to face me. He looked scared and helpless, what did I do to have him like that all over me. It feels good but at the same time wrong. I don't want to hurt him no more. "I think those paintings are beautiful"

"really?"

"Yes, maybe I can actually pose for one"

"I will love that"

"yes, but with clothes on" I joked, he laughed softly. "But who is that" I pointed to the first painting I uncovered. he turned around, he walked to it and touched the face of the women.

"that's my mother as I remember her"

"She was beautiful"

"She was"

Jonathan enters the room. "There you are, why is it always you are lurking around, come on, please" he said walking out again.

"Goodbye Raymond"

I walked to the receiving room again, there I sit calmly waiting to hear what he has to say. What kind of stupid story he invented today. he was there just standing giving his back to me, then he turned around. 

"I know I fucked up, many, many, many times, that I force this marriage and did a couple bad things on the way, but Emilia I truly love you and I know I  say it many times to, but my feelings are true, and I also know that I lose my temper a lot" then he walks to me and get on his knees, holding my hands. "But is because I can't live without you, I once again, ask, can you give me a second chance, please I beg of you, because I need your perfect soul that matches mine so harmonious, I need that smile to belong to me, only to me"