YOURS

17

I was getting ready for dinner I was still feeling the twirls in my belly from before. I went down and help Mary preparing the table, I was so nervous I couldn't stay still.

"Miss Emilia please just go and wait for the guest to arrive with your mother" Mary told me, finishing putting the table

"fine, but the waiting kills me, oh Mary I have so much to tell you" I hold her hands

"well it can wait miss, now go and try to relax"

I walked to my mother in our usual relaxing room, she was drinking tea and reading.

"you seem to really like that book" I told her grabbing my book from the window shelf

"well, is really interesting, it talks about all sort of stuff, for example, the fire in our hearts when we see our loves ones"

"Really, what it says?"

"it says that is like a burning sensation that starts in our checks up to our ears, then down to our hearts, your hands get cold, and you start sweating, isn't that silly?"

"is not" I feel sad for a second, that was the way I used to feel for Jonathan and bennet.

"Do you feel that way Emilia? with Jonathan I mean?"

"no mother, sadly no"

Then a maid walks in letting us know that the guest has arrived. We walk to the dining area, and we all sit. Jonathan next to me, Raymond at the other side of the table, next to him Eric and casandra and next to her Steven. My father and mother each on the end of the table. The staff fast bring the first entree, tomato soup.

"My father says sorry for not coming he was not feeling good" Jonathan speaks

"is ok, I know there's been a lot going on in the government" my father answers

"Yes, my father keeps trying to implement this new law for the common folk, with all that has been going on"

"Vermont is a saint"

"he sure is, he just raised our salary by a coin, finally I will be able to build my stable" eric adds

"uhg! yes he wants to start horse races, like we don't have enough already" Cassadra complains

"uh I will love some horse races, has been years since I don't assist to one" Raymond adds

"I use to race myself back at London" Steven jumps to the conversation

I see with the corner of my eye how Jonathan rolls his eyes, he certainly doesn't like steven. 

"really?" Cassandra says all exited

"yes, I won a couple, with my horse, I raised him since i was little, toby, his name"

"aww, that's so adorable" Cassandra acts like a little girl in love

"you never say that about me" eric says confused.

They kept talking and making fun of themselves, it was funny seeing Cassandra all over steven and eric getting jealous, I just sat there looking at him, wishing I was beside him. But why? wasn't I trying again with Jonathan? why I keep going back to the same thoughts of steven? So many questions and feelings, I just can't stop to looking at him, he noticed and looks at me from time to time, but he tries to evade and not make it obvious. The last entree was served. My Father stands up and raised a cup of wine, we all stand up.

"For all this delicious food, for the people that we have here in this table and for our new member of our family, Jonathan, may your marriage bring only but happiness to my daughter"