Siblings Secret

28--Ivan

April 5 

A week passed since my secret was almost discovered. After a whole week, my immune system started to weaken from all the stress and heavy thoughts about her—is that really all she found out? What if she found out more but just hiding it? Wait, is she— "Ivan!" my body jerked, snapping me out of my thoughts, "Ah–sorry, what did you say?" I gave Levi an apologetic smile. He returned it with a concerned expression, "I kept calling your name—are you okay?" he rubbed his thumb behind my hand. I look down at our entwined hands and then back at him.

He really doesn't care where we are, even if we are sitting next to each other at a table with the food truck in front of us. 

"I'm okay. I was just thinking about something," I give him a short smile. However, he wasn't convinced, and neither was I, but he didn't push the matter anymore. "So, what did you say?" I said cheerfully, hoping to trail away from the topic. He looked a second longer before sighing in defeat,

"I was asking where we should go after eating,"

"Hmm, that is a good question... Oh! What about Wonderland Garden?" I exclaimed,

" We haven't been there in so long!" I added.

My excitement made him laugh while agreeing to my suggestion.

Wonderland Garden is as magical as Levi's eyes, maybe even better (just don't tell him). I remember the first time we went there; I never wanted to leave. I would have been an elf and Levi would have been a fairytale prince: the place came in different sections, for one there was a whole chess board floor with giant chess pieces–it was fun to move around.

Beautiful rays of colorful lights lit up the flowers, a pathway to what I remember was a sitting room with grown vines all around, in every corner—I remember how the sunlight would shine through the open cracks; a surreal feeling took over at that moment. 

My favorite section was the winter garden–I don't know how they did it but it felt like real snow, that section was even cold too but not freezing.

Upon closer look of the snow covered trees, there was small pink flowers hiding, It made me wish that this garden was reality, not what wait for me once we were done.

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As we arrived, we got out of the car, I scan at the most biggest building I ever seen. The outside is nothing special, but it is the inside that makes you question your own imagination. Like, you can't fathom how this can even be fake. 

Making our way inside, Levi scooped up my hand to hold in his; he really loves to hold hands whenever he gets the chance. I chuckled lightly to myself, letting him do whatever he wanted.

As we walked around, the place still looked as enchanted as before—times like these, it's like my inner child comes out—running around, glazing over the characters, heart filled with innocent wonder.

Stopping at a display of a weird-looking teapot set, I felt a hand slip through my fingers, interlocking our fingers. Catching me off guard, I whip my head, looking at Levi and seeing him give me a cheerful grin.

I figure to let it go. That is how we walked around, hands locked together—not worrying about others seeing. This is our time. Our moment. Our memories. No one else's.

Our relationship (even myself) grown over time. I kept my distance the first time we went on an actual date. At that time, I was having a hard time coming to terms with the fact that I had deep feelings for a guy and that I even started to date him, too.

Growing up, I wasn't taught about gay people or was surrounded by gay people. I didn't even know they existed. My parents never said anything about it, either. So, when all of a sudden, the most attractive boy I had ever seen forced his way into my life, refusing to leave—of course, I was going to be confused and in denial.

It took some time, but I could not be any more grateful for his patience with me, even if it takes months to a year—especially not rushing me.

I'm free but not; I know that much; nevertheless, he is the one thing that I won't regret.

I lift up our hands, kissing the back of his hand as I keep eye contact with him. Confusion laced in his eyes, I just shook my head–telling him not to worry about it.

"Let's get a snack, shall we?" I said, pulling him along to a cafe that is part of the Garden. 

"Wait at a table. I'll bring the food," Levi said. I nodded in return. 

Just as I started to walk away, looking for a table, I was pulled back from my waist, turning around, lips covering my own. Not only was I too dumbfounded to kiss back, but I didn't hide my shock that he kissed me in front of all these people. He clearly did not mind since he grinned at me after pulling away, going back to his mission to get food.

Bastard, I know my cheeks are flushed. "Mommy, why two boys kissing?" I heard a little boy asking. Turning in the direction of the source, I saw a little boy about 6 years old with his mother, pointing in my direction, "Baby, don't point. They are not normal; don't be rude." My and the mother's eyes met—throwing her a glare, making her eyes widen, quickly leaving while she pulled her child along.

"Stupid, ignorant bitch," I curse under my breath. That's why parents like that always end up having a child who turns out to be gay or lesbian.

I settled for a couple of high tops, waiting for about 30 minutes before Levi returned with food. My whole mood turned bitter after that comment that bitch of a mother said to her poor child. I knew Levi would be worried, so I did my best to hide it.

Let's just say I was very successful but did not let that moment ruin my time with him.

To conclude our date, we thought a movie would be perfect.

The sun already set when we finished the action-horror movie. At the theaters, I couldn't stop laughing at how excited Levi was. He was like a child.

"Oh my God! Did you see how their eyes popped out!?" Levi exclaimed, making me giggle. Before I could say anything, a force on my shoulder made me stumble backward. If it wasn't for Levi, I probably would have fallen on the floor.

Groaning in pain, I had a worried boyfriend asking me all sorts of questions—acting like I was hit by a car. However, I wasn't paying attention since I saw the person who caused my pain—let me tell you, it felt like my shoulder was burning off from how disgusted I was. "Ivan?" Luna gaped, "Luna," I acknowledge.

"It's been a while; how has Axel been doing?" she asked, seeming guilty. She should be, though I don't care about my sibling's affairs. I saw how Axel has been the past few days; he hasn't been himself, and I can guess it is because of her.

"Good, nothing said about you, so he has time to hang with his siblings," I innocently smiled at her. If only looks could kill from the way she is throwing knives at me.

" Tell your bitch sister, Alma, to watch herself," she said sweetly, but it was anything but.

My blood started to boil, "Motherfucker, I dare you to say that again, you loose bitch" I grit through my teeth.

She smiled, " You heard me," with that, she walked away, seeming satisfied with my response. I swear if Levi didn't hold me back—as he was trying to calm me down— when I stepped up to her, I would have attacked that dense bitch, even if she was a girl.

I should have beat her right then and there.