craving you. || Itafushi.

chapter 5 - Megumi.

    "do you wanna do something else now that the girls are asleep?" Itadori asked, leaning his head on my shoulder. it shouldn't sound suggestive, but for some reason it does. I could feel the tips of my ears go red.
    "I think I'm just gonna rest my body a bit, sorry." I said. Itadori smiled gently at me.
    "no need to apologize Fushiguro!" he said happily. I nodded my head at him and then rested my head on the window. I was like that for a good 20 minutes before I felt Itadori lean on me again. I couldn't help but smile. I slightly lifted his head and rested my hand on his head so I could 'sit my arm more comfortably' (just an excuse so he could play with Yuji's hair.) I felt him move his body closer to me. I looked down at him to see he was already looking at me. I quickly looked away and lifted my hand from his head. he chuckled.
    "god, I'm sorry, I thought you were asleep, and I just didn't want it to be uncomfor-"
    "it's okay Fushiguro. I'm fine with this." he smiled at me before placing my hand on his head. he's fine with it...? I was stunned. he's actually okay with this... I don't know why I was so stunned. it's Itadori we're talking about, he loves physical touch, but for some reason it felt different, as if there was more to his words. I decided to not think about it too much, and just went to scroll through TikTok. Itadori tapped my hand. I lifted it and looked at him.
    "wanna listen to music with me?" he asked, offering me an air pod. the left air pod. the air pod he didn't use, because he said it was my air pod.

    "yeah, sure." I said, taking the air pod from his hand and looking forward so I could place it in my ear. I didn't realise it till I felt his hair, but I had subconsciously put my hand on his head and started playing with his hair. I looked down at him again, and he looked... calm. he looked as if every problem sitting on his shoulders had vanished. I smiled. he looked so peaceful, a look I hadn't seen on his face ever. it's always been excitement, or determination, or sadness, although I've only ever seen him upset when I went to the hospital to talk to him. I wasn't really paying attention to the music he was playing; I was too focused on him. he was the most gorgeous person I had ever laid eyes on. he reminds me of the sun, and not just personality wise, he's always warm. every little bit of contact we make, I can feel his warmth rush through my bones, if I wasn't hopelessly in love with him, I'd be overwhelmed by it. I decided to stop looking at him before he looked at me, and actually tune in to what song we were listening to. I must've been too focused on him during the whole song, because I could hear him typing. I looked over his shoulder to see what song he was typing up. Sailor song? this doesn't sound like Itadoris style of music. but then again, I don't even know what the song sounds like or is about. I looked back at my phone as the intro of the song started to play. the first lyric played. I saw her in the rightest way, looking like Anne Hathaway, laughing while she hit her pen and coughed, and coughed. then the second set of lyrics. And then she came up to my knees, begging, "baby, would you please do the things you said you'd do to me, to me?" then the chorus, I'm guessing. Oh, won't you kiss me on the mouth and love me like a sailor? and when you get a taste, can you tell me what's my flavour? I don't believe in God, but I believe that you're my saviour. My mom says that she worried, but I'm dripping in this favor. And when we're getting dirty, I forget all that is wrong, I sleep so I can see you, cause I hate to wait so long. a love song. Itadori is in love.

30 minutes later, and I still can't get my mind off of that song. "And when we're getting dirty, I forget all that is wrong." what is that meant to mean? underage sex? sex before marriage? or... a gay relationship. I didn't want to jump to conclusions, so I searched up the meaning of the song. "The song delves into themes of forbidden love, personal growth, and the struggle for acceptance." (the website I got this info off of was Neon Music.) it doesn't exactly specify a gay relationship, but there's no way this is about a straight couple. maybe I'm thinking too far. I sighed. I looked down at Itadori, to see that he had fallen asleep. I still haven't moved my hand from his head.
    "and you ask how we know." Kugisaki said. I almost jumped out of my skin.
    "jesus! you scared the shit out of me." I whisper yelled.
    "he's not gonna wake up. he's most likely gonna stay asleep for the next three hours."
    "I know, but still." I muttered. I could feel her staring holes into my body.
    "what's gotten you so focused?" she asked. do I tell her? I mean, she could help me out... maybe...
    "a song." I responded.
    "what, you suddenly wanna become a musician?" she asked sarcastically.
    "maybe I do." I lied, I had no interest in learning about music at all, I just enjoyed listening to it, especially with Itadori.
    "bullshit. why are you focused on a song?" she asked.
    "...I'm trying to figure out the meaning of it. Itadori played it about half an hour ago and it just stayed on my mind, one lyric particularly, so I did some research." I said.
    "what song?" she asked.
    "Sailor song, by... um...-" I quickly searched it up on Spotify. "-Gigi Perez." she stared at me for a second.
    "okay, well um. can you make sure Itadori's definitely asleep real quick?" she asked. I nodded and ruffled his hair. nothing. I looked back at her.
    "he's telling you something. Itadori listens to so much white girl music it's insane, he also doesn't listen to love songs unless they're white girl music. let alone, a love song with an underlining of homosexuality. I'm sure you know this by know, but it's about a homosexual relationship, sure, it's never outright stated, but it's there. the meaning of that song has been posted all over TikTok, and I know that Itadori's seen a definition of the song because he reposted one." she said.
    "so you're telling me that he's in love with a boy?" I asked. I'm not dumb, I know that she's implying that he's in love with me, but I don't want to say it out loud, just in case I'm wrong.
    "not just any boy. the boy sitting next to him." she said with a slight smile. but her smile almost seemed... sad? is Kugisaki also in love with Itadori?

hhhhhi gang!!!!!!111! so this chapters a bit longer, but thats because i spent a bit too long analyzing Sailor Song. also my dumbass tried to actaully refernce with a website, bbut i couldnt. also spoiler alert. actually nvm! you can wait till like... chapter 10 maybe idk