It's Right (A Delena Story)

Welcome to the land of the undead

Elena Pov:
Dear Diary,
I'm a vampire. Even the thought of that makes me want to die, which is ironic since I'm already dead. Last night we killed Klaus and before we did we didn't know exactly who had sired Damon, Stefan and Caroline, although we knew that Klaus had sired Tyler for definite, as awful as I feel it had to be done, Klaus had drained me of nearly all my blood, he'd threatened the lives of Jeremy, Ric, Stefan, Damon, Bonnie everyone I loved, we had to end it. Anyway as to how I became a vampire, I died duh, obviously I died, Rebekah was at the bridge Matt swerved his truck into the water and I drowned, I asked Stefan to save Matt, I was ready to die. I'd made peace with it, I'd already cheated death twice.
Honestly, I'm glad Stefan was there because Matt is alive I know if Damon had been there he would have saved me because he loved me. It was no secret, Isobel had practically outed him when he gave me the device last year and everyone around us knew, even Stefan but what no one knows and no one will ever know is that I love Damon too, his love consumes me and I feel more than safety when I'm with him, I feel content like I'm home like Damon is my home, but I can never tell him or anyone that, although I have already told Matt in a roundabout way when I was deciding between the brothers. It's selfish of me I know, I shouldn't string both of them along, but I need them both in different ways, I'm not sure which ways but I'll probably figure it out. Ok confession over back to my point, I became a vampire because Damon's blood was in my system when I died, at first when I found out I suspected Damon had been slipping into me for weeks my heart broke at that thought, no matter who he was when we met; since Stefan went all Ripper, Damon had been different I guess more like the human version, the one he told me I would've liked when he was dying, part of me knew that he hadn't; Damon told me Meredith gave me his blood the night I died I passed out before and went to the hospital I had a brain haemorrhage and she gave me his blood to heal me, but it backfired and I became a vampire. When I woke up in my bed I knew something was different, Stefan looked guilty and Damon looked a mixture of angry and upset, I could see water pooling in his ocean-blue eyes, and part of me wanted to run over to him and hold him, and whisper words of encouragement but the look on their faces told me I'd need comforting not Damon. Throughout the day I'd had flashbacks of moments some from when my parents were alive and others I'm assuming were compelled from my mind, of course, the transition caused the compulsion to break, but what shocked me the most was that all the compulsion was from Damon, not Stefan including the fact we had met first and that he told me he loved me, which wasn't a surprise. Anyway, it's late, and I have to go hunting with Stefan tomorrow, much to my disappointment, Stefan suggested I should go on the animal diet and Damon stated I needed human blood, deep down I know Damon is right but they both know I don't want to hurt anyone so I agreed to go hunting with Stefan as it was the safest option.
E.G

Third - Person POV:
Flashback: Earlier in the day Elena wakes up as a vampire.
Damon is sitting on the windowsill, glaring at Stefan whilst Stefan has guilt written all over his face. Elena wakes up to the two Salvatore brothers wordlessly fighting each other.
"Stefan?" Elena asks confused
"Hey. I'm right here, you've been in and out for hours." Stefan replies stroking her hand gently, he is sitting on the edge of her bed, with a worried expression on his face, Damon sighs and rolls his eyes. "W, what happened?"Elena asks confused in a panicked voice, she looks down, "Oh my God Matt is he?-" "Alive" Damon interjects anger seething through him, "Ask Stefan the hero" he glares at Stefan, Elena nods softly and looks back at Stefan, "Stefan?" she asks shyly afraid of his answer because if Matt's alive that means that he listened to her and saved Matt not her so she should theoretically be dead, unless he was strong enough to get both of them out, although he hadn't had human blood since the wickery bridge incident so that was likely to be impossible. She looked up at the two brothers in horror, it wasn't possible, this wasn't happening she was a vampire. Zoning out Stefan's voice bringing  her back to reality, "When Jeremy brought you to the hospital your injuries were worse than anyone knew, Meredith gave you Damon's blood to heal you" "And when Rebekah drove Matt off the bridge, you had my blood, vampire blood in your system, Elena" Damon interrupted softly "Oh my God am I dead, did I die?" Elena panicked, running her hands through her hair frantically, "But I don't wanna be a, I can't be a, I can't be a vampire" she cried, violently shaking her head "No, no, no, no this isn't happening, this wasn't supposed to happen, I was ready to die" She looked at Damon whose heart was breaking, no doubt he blamed himself for her becoming a vampire as he couldn't stop it, he couldn't protect her. She desperately wanted to run over to Damon and hug him and tell him that she didn't blame him or hate him, that in fact, she loved him and that if she hadn't chosen to say goodbye to Stefan, Damon would have been dead as evil- Ric would have undoubtedly killed him, but she knew she couldn't do that, so instead she gave him a small unnoticeable except to the receiver, smile. During her attack of conscience, Stefan was rambling about how Bonnie's magic was quote "stronger than ever" and that "There might be a way out of this" She felt a sense of hope which quickly disappeared as she knew that there was no way to reverse vampirism, Damon only confirmed her thoughts when he snarkily replied "You either feed or you die, there is no door number three" he looked at her softly as if to say 'I'm sorry' Elena ran her hands over her face, "If Bonnie thinks there might be a way to stop me from being a vampire, we have to try" Damon rolled his eyes prompting her to continue, "But, if by tonight there has been no way found I will feed. Ok?" The brothers sighed but nodded in unison, "Fine, it's your choice, as always Elena" Damon rolled his eyes as he left Elena and Stefan alone. Stefan climbed onto the bed and lay down next to Elena, she felt tears falling down her cheeks, Stefan raised his hand to wipe them but she pushed his hand away, "No" she mumbled shaking her head, she was angry at him for giving her false hope but she knew he didn't believe it was false hope, Stefan has always been an optimist, that was the difference between the younger and the elder Salvatore and right now as much as she hated it she needed the pessimist of the two as Damon knew the truth and right at this moment, she wasn't ready to play pretend. "I'm tired" she sighed as she turned away from Stefan,
Stefan left the room and joined Damon downstairs who was drinking a glass of bourbon. Stefan entered the kitchen and sighed, "Can I have one of those?" he asked gesturing to the now nearly empty glass of bourbon in Damon's hand, "Do you deserve one?" Damon asked snarkily rolling his eyes, "No, but it's either that or a blood bag, so" Stefan rocked back and forth on his heels, Damon poured him a glass and handed it to Stefan forcefully almost spilling the contents, "Look I know you disagree with my approach, but we have to try something, anything there has to be a way" Stefan sighed, looking at his brother hopelessly, "Ok, fine you give her false hope if that's what you wish Stefan, but when it fails whose going to have to pick up the pieces, huh, Stefan?" Damon raised his voice slightly, Stefan shakes  his head "Look, Damon, you weren't there when she told me she absolutely didn't want this"
Stefan pleads, "You're right Stefan I wasn't, but we both know there isn't a way out, there is no miracle cure and we wouldn't be in this mess if you'd have saved her" Damon shouts, "But you just had to be the hero" Damon adds bitterly, "I get it, Damon, you're pissed she chose me but right now we have to let it go and help her" he pleaded, Damon looked back at him anger seething from him, and the veins under his eyes began to appear, he pushed past Stefan, knocking him over. "You know what Stefan, we're not doing this, another day maybe, but not today" Damon shakes his his head as he left slamming the front door. Elena shot out of bed and ran down the stairs "What happened? Stefan?" she asked impatiently, her voice full of concern for Damon but Stefan couldn't know that, Stefan wrapped his arms around her waist, "he's angry that's all, he needs time to cool down" Stefan sighed kissing her temple softly, "I thought you were tired?" he asked softly, "I couldn't sleep with you two bickering, I can hear everything. Stefan tensed wondering if Elena had heard what he had said to Danmon before he left, "Stefan, how do you sleep?" Elena quizzed, Stefan chucked, "When you're a vampire, sleep isn't that important, you can block out the noise that helps you sleep, although you won't be able to do that until you transition" Elena looked down, "If you transition, remember Bonnie's going to help us, she's looking for a spell, I said I'd go over there you should come, it'll help you clear your head" Elena nodded sinking into Stefan's embrace. Elena left Stefan alone in the kitchen as she went to get dressed.