HIS HYUNGS

CHAPTER 13

'Solace'

"What have you learnt?"

"Is that what you've learnt from me namjoon? Tell me brat!! Is that how I raised you?!" Jin's voice rasped out harshly

Namjoon sobs harder at the harsh voice of the eldest, his face was all swollen and reddish in color

"N-O! plEase st-stop hyung! " he cried out as another strike of the belt hits hard on his shoulder this time, Namjoon sobbed and begged for release as he tightly clutched the shoulder, trying to stop the pain, but alas.

21 times, he was hit with the harsh leather belt for the 22nd time now..

Namjoon was howling in pain and kept crying, which did nothing but irritate the elder more. After another couple of strikes, Jin spoke in a chilly voice which sent shivers down the youngers spine.

"Go to your room, and complete your work"

Namjoon nodded and winced as he stood up, slowly while limping and crying a bit, he made his way to his room, without anyone's notice, they wouldn't notice him anyways, why would they even care? 

Jin was like a father figure to him, throughout his life, always supporting him, guiding him, helping him out in one way or the other, jin had a habit of singing lullabies which was the only reason he could sleep, but now he only sleeps when he is exhausted.

Namjoon reached his room and closed the door, he slid down the door and let his tears fall freely, when did it change? It was such a happy family, but now.. even a blind man could tell that each and everyone was hiding and faking their true emotion.. there was nothing he could do.. he is a nuissance after all..

All the overthinking bought out a different side in him.. He thought of himself as the villain in the family, he resented himself and always tried to be like others.. he changed his characteristics like a person changes  clothes, he hated how he was, how he was never strong or firm in his decisions.

Maybe he was the outcast, maybe he was actually a bad omen.. The continuous thoughts made his chest hurt, He pulled on his hair and kept crying silently.

What was he? An animal who was about to rape a 16 year old boy who just stepped inside his family? Of course he had no intention to actually rape a boy, he cringed when he told those words himself, but he just wanted to scare him so that Jin wouldn't totally ignore Namjoon now, ever since the younger ones were born, all the attention was slowly and painfully taken away from him, the small dates and the cute little conversations all disappeared, leaving Namjoon all desolate and lonely.

Now he had accepted it, it was his fate after all, he had  to forget the whole bond between them to move on..

He moved towards his bed and spread out like a starfish, everything hurt.. Why was everything going downhill all of a sudden? 

A few minutes later, Jin entered the room only to find the younger deep in sleep, upon seeing this, he sighed and went outside.. 

The elder did feel sad that he could not pay individual attention to all the seven brothers, but he always hid it with his sass and the stupid stunt that Namjoon pulled with  the youngest one got him very disappointed and angry.

On the other hand, Yoongi was staring at his sketchbook having no idea what to do, every single thing got on his nerves, he knew he needed help, some sort of assurance that every thing will be fine, but who was available? They had their own burdens to deal with, he was elder than almost everyone here and he couldn't handle himself, he felt ashamed and angry at himself.

He threw the sketchbook to some corner and buried his face in his hands, what is even happening to him? Why is every thing so frustrating? His job was to bring money to the table and live a good life with his brothers, maybe get a wife later on and have kids. 

His life never sounded good to him, he felt like a piece of waste rotting away on his bed.

He felt like a robot, getting up in the morning.. Getting dressed, driving his own car to the office and then doing his work, shouting at his secretary for her tardiness and then have loads of coffee, eat and then sit and overthink for no joy.

Yoongi then sighed for the  hundredth  time that night and took a sleeping pill and then dozed off in his bed.

This couldn't get any worse