Party Animals : Jevon Enemies To Lovers - (Jake Wheeler x Devon Evans) // (BXB)

Inchoative

Inchoative - Marks the start or beginning of something.

INTENSE TW : Mentions of rape

JAKE'S POV

Jake : fuck my life, I can't believe I'm having the most emotionally challenging conversation of my life with Devon Evans.

Devon had this look that almost looked like concern mixed with confusion.

Lexy held my hand, she knew where this was headed.

Jake : um... god, my voice is already starting break. So one night when I was 12, me and my dad got in this huge fight and it made me want to kill myself but instead... I found a bottle of vodka, packed a bag and snuck out. I made it all the way into the center of town, drunk as fuck and I was smiling to myself, just blessed to be able to actually have a feeling like that and...

I felt tears pricking the corners of my eyes.

Jake : this part gets hazy... well... all of it is hazy if we're being honest but I don't know if that's because I was drunk or how long it's been. But I walked passed this car and there was this guy in the drivers seat and I heard him call out to me and I don't know why but it was almost like he knew me and apparently that was good enough for me because I ended up in his car. It was 2'o'clock in the morning and he started speeding until those white lines became conjoined and he took me down through the lanes and he stopped at one of those corners and then he pulled me into him, kissing me and it almost felt disgustingly surreal. I hated that I loved that feeling... until that feeling faded and reality hit. I begged him to take me home but... he said he wouldn't unless I- FUCKKK!

I started almost screaming with tears covering my whole eyes. I squeezed down on Lexy's hand, hoping to find a sense of relief.

Before I knew it I was being tackled to the floor from both sides in a hug from both Lexy, who was just hugging my arm, and Devon, who was practically suffocating me.

Eventually I basically PEELED those two off me and we all just ended up laying down on our backs.

Jake : after that I changed as a person. I became... this.

Devon : well I think you're pretty great.

I smiled. A compliments never made me that happy. God, must be from how emotional I am right now.

Jake : I started using sex and drugs and alcohol as an escape from the world, because the world hadn't done anything but take from me, just like how I tried to escape that night.

Devon : So... I'm going full on psychology mode. Do you view sex as something special shared between intimate people?

Jake : no. I see sex as... well I almost feel desensitised, like it's more of something to do when I just need a break from life.

Devon : No matter who it is?

Jake : If it's human and has a dick, I'm there.

Devon : Do you think that's because of the lack of self-security you're able to give yourself because that guy took that away from you and now you use sex as... almost like a drug to make you feel more secure.

Jake : ...well-.

Devon : and let me guess, it almost never works because as soon as you wake up the next day you regret it, AGAIN, and then find that you only hate yourself more because of it?

Jake : How did you?...

Devon grazed our hands together, the air going thin and silent. He then intertwined our fingers, locking our hands. The air was stripped from my lungs and I felt my face burn up.

Devon : You should learn to love yourself Jake. One day someone's going to show you what love looks like and you might not even recognise it. You're amazing, charismatic, charming, good-looking and... I'm only saying this once but, you can be funny Jake.

Jake : I am funny.

Devon : and you deserve someone to appreciate that about you in a way that no one else ever has before.

There was a comfortable silence.

Lexy : Am I third-wheeling right now.

Devon almost ripped his hand from mine.

Devon : Don't be gross Lexy.

Jake : I can't even look at a boy without you giving me a smirk.

Devon : Especially since I'm straight, what makes you think I'd want him?!

Jake : I know I'm gay but holy fuck I'm not blind!

Lexy : woah woah. Calm down, it was just a joke.

Jake : Weren't we supposed to be going somewhere?

Devon : No but I do wanna move. It's still early and my back feels like I'm developing arthritis.

Lexy : real. where should we go?

Jake : You guys wanna go to the store real quick?

Devon : Yeah, just go 7-Eleven, it's right down the road.

We all got up, yawning and stretching, making sure we had everything and then leaving.

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