I tried forgiving you, and we got back together for a few days.
Yet I still couldn't forgive myself, or was it that I couldn't forgive myself because I was with you and still couldn't forgive you? Regardless it happened.
Once I left you for good I was so happy I hugged everyone. Being away from that state and toxic stuff, being away from someone who I shared and bought stuff for but didn't receive it back, was so nice.
I felt like I could make out with the earth and the sun , with the air and with myself.
Half a week or so you texted me, how? Well you unblocked yourself through logging into my stuff. What did you tell me "I'm sorry"- SIKE. No you didn't, wanna know what you said? " this is how you cheated on me" girl please? The other person I wanted ( TMIIIIII -) was myself, I would eat myself out if I could. So who else??
I made sure to block you and switch my passwords. For good.
You know I'm really happy. Do I forgive you? Yes and no. I do but I don't, and the reason is, because I don't care enough about you and what we had to even forgive it or not. It's something I'm happily leaving in the past in that state.
I hope someone changes you, for good. I hope you do whatever you wanna do in life and accomplish it.
BUT WITHOUT ME CAUSE HELL NAH.
