what happens when your mom introduces you to her childhood best friends daughter? will she change your life for the better or worse?
❗️there will be light mentions of self harm and sexual abuse. some chapters will include smut as well. whenever thes...
hiii!! I am so so sorry for the slow updates. school started and im already so behind.👎🏼👎🏼 anyway, ENJOY THE CHAPTERRR. :))
**billies pov**
I wake up to my phone ringing for the 100 millionth time in the past 20 minutes. I tried turning over and ignoring it, but its no use at this point. I finally convince myself to roll over and grab my phone to see who's calling. low and behold, its hannah. she proceeds to call back again as I look down at the 42 missed call notifications on my phone. I take a deep breath before clearing my throat and answering the phone.
"hi babe what's up?" I say softly.
"I told you we needed to talk yesterday. i'll be at yours in 30, be ready I don't want to wait for you." my girlfriend says in a cold tone.
"ok sounds go-" i'm cut off abruptly by the call ending.
I sigh and plug my phone back in, leaving it on the bed as I head to the bathroom to get ready.
as much as I hate how hannah treats me, I can't seem to build up the courage to leave her. its like every time I finally grow enough balls to end it, the memories of the good times with her overshadow the bad. I know its not healthy and I know I should leave, but i'm attached. in a way, i'm over her as a person and I'm over the relationship itself, i'm just still holding on to the memories we've shared and the routines we've created. (please tell me someone else has been in this position..🥲)
I finish putting on a little concealer under my eyes and some aquaphor on my lips. I get dressed and put on my shoes, heading to my front porch so i'm already outside once hannah gets here. I sit down on the swing on my porch and open instagram.
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averyjade she's high, she lives in the sky tonight🌙
I like the picture as I admire averys beauty for a couple minutes. she is so pretty. she always has been. I remember she was my first ever girl crush. I even told my mom that "I would date her if I was a boy" multiple times. no wonder she quite literally responded with "I know" when I came out to her.
im snapped out of my trance when I hear the sound of blasting music followed by the honk of a car horn as I see hannahs car pull into my driveway. I stand up and take a deep breath before walking over to the passenger side of the car. I open the door and take a seat on the black leather seat. I begin to say hi to my girlfriend before i'm cut off by her turning up the music and reversing out of the driveway. I roll my eyes and pull out my phone, opening tiktok. after about 10 minutes of driving, hannah finally parks in a parking spot in a gas station parking lot.
"so did I do something to provoke you or are you just ignoring me for fun." hannah says looking over at me.
"I'm ignoring you? I tried saying hello the second I got in the car and you turned up the music. not to mention, I feel like we haven't talked in weeks hannah. you're so distant anyone who didn't know us wouldn't believe we're together." I say in a calm tone, not wanted to make her angry.
"whatever billie. it's all about you per usual." she says rolling her eyes.
"what's going on with you? you used to be so happy and loving towards me." I say starting to feel tears form in my eye.
"what's going on is that I'm done billie. I'm done with you not showing me off or taking me out. you said we were going to go on a trip for our one year and all you ended up doing was taking me to a fucking diner. its like you aren't even putting in effort towards us anymore." she says raising her voice at me.
"I thought our relationship was more than all that materialistic shit hannah. for gods sake I literally painted you something handmade for our 6 month anniversary and you adored it. what changed?" I say forcing my tears back.
"lets just say I finally realized that i'm worth more than this bullshit I put up with billie. im tired of not being treated the way I deserve. we're getting off topic though the reason I brought you here was to tell you i've been seeing someone else. didn't want you to find out from someone else you know?" she says with almost zero emotion as the re-applies her lipgloss in the review mirror.
"w-what?" I say feeling my face heat up and tears starting to roll down my cheeks.
"you heard me the first time billie you're not stupid. now I'm going to take you home and come inside with you to grab all my shit then i'm gone for good billie."
I'm not even given enough time to respond to her statement before she turns the music up and starts driving away. how was she so heartless? did she not realize how shitty of a person she is? I look over at her as she lip syncs to the song playing. after 10 minutes of me staring out of the window crying, we finally get to my house. hannah parks the car and we head inside my house. she pushes right in the door and heads straight for my room. she begins collecting her things from around the room as I stand in the doorway trying to force back more tears. she finally finds everything and proceeds to push past me and out of the house without a single word. I walk over to my bed and and lay down, bursting into tears the second my head hits the pillow. I stay in that position for at least another 45 minutes before opening my phone and clicking on averys contact. this might be impulsive but in this moment, I really don't care.
**averys pov**
I finish my after shower routine and change before sitting on my bed. I pick up my phone that has been sitting on my nightstand and open tiktok, beginning to scroll. about 5 minutes into my scrolling, my phone starts ringing. I look up at the contact hovering at the top of my phone screen and I see it's billie. I smile to myself before taking a deep breath and answering the call.
"hi billie what's up?" I say in a happy tone.
"sorry this is random but wanna come over and watch a movie or something? I don't want to be alone at home right now." billie says shakily as she can be heard sniffling over the phone alerting me that she had been crying.
"yes of course, sounds fun. I'll be over in 30 ok?" I say and billie agrees before I end the call.
a/n:
I hope you guys liked the chapter. off topic but tour starts IN 25 DAYS???? I'm actually so excited. catch me avoiding all concert videos until after my show.😍 anyway, I hope y'all are doing amazing. please take care of yourselves!! <3
