What makes a villain?

10 I am (not) fine

Izuku POV

I got enough just enough. What is that? I smile, I am friendly, I try to be, perceives no one's story the villain. Being quirkless is like a bad label that sticks to me and keeps everyone away. Even if I'm there for everyone and she's never there for me. No one noticed that I started writing with my left arm. No one asked if I went to Recovery Girl after the fight or how I am feeling. In reality, I also used toilet paper and wrapped bandages and my wounds and put burn cream on my burns hid it all with my big black gloves and didn't want to recovery girl. I used a make-up for my face. No one noticed that I drew my freckles badly too many on one side and hardly any on the other side.

At least I don't have any injuries that can make it much harder for me or that could be fatal. Of course, every injury can be fatal if you don't take good care of it, but fortunately everything is intact and only bruised and I didn't break my leg. It's a miracle I just broke my arm.

The only problem was my neck which was a challenge. I'm not too stupid put make-up on a open burn. I just put on burn cream on my neck and then put on my tie badly like always. Something I do out of habit. Because I could never tie them up properly. Now I made the tie so that they completely covered the bandages.

Not that I know that many would worry. Maybe some teachers and Recovery Girl. That's the main reason why I cover my neck. I couldn't hide the smell of burnt skin. But the most, tried to completely ignore the incidents and focus entirely on other things. Only Kacchan gave me evil look he was at Recovery Girl and All Might didn't say a word about his weakness. Really malicious about him to comment on me, but not to care if Kacchan went to her

I have sore muscles everywhere. Dents scratches burns. It can't go on like this. It can't go on like this anymore. I can't live in a school of heroes just to make my life difficult there, I'll only probably be the next one killed from the Hero Commission. I chose my words carefully in front of the reporter. These words were my sayonara. My bye bye of life. I will be faster then the Her Commission and I won't give All Might the satisfaction of leaving UA

I'm tired. I'm just tired. I want to close my eyes and keep them closed. So they never open again fall in the deep dark void. I hearths small voices telling me over and over again to do it to not fight a already lost fight cause I will only make my time longer and painfuller then it already is. That it is my birthright to give it up since I am am quirkless. And how different should I be to have more right to survive then the other quirkless kids. 

Since I ran away from Kaccahn, I didn't come back. Like I have something to do. A few days had passed after the match. Kacchan always had demand a remach. He will get his dam remach in hell. It's literally what the fourth week since we lost our teachers. I have this urge to go to the next rooftop to throw myself upside and fall in the deep deep desired void of my imagination.

I try everything not to pursue the urge.

You'll regret it.

Don't do that.

There are still so many beautiful things to live.

I have this voice in my head

If you're dead how can you regret it idiot

And why. If I may ask, don't you have every right to decide about your own life? Almost every  person has literally encouraged you to end. For me personally your life was just created for one reason that reason is to end it. That's not why everything was made so difficult for me. Wasn't that a win sign. That's why your mom died that's why you had to live with your dad that's why he told you every day how useless you are. Do you think you can escape the truth by hiding from your father in the dorms?

Okay true but, there are so many beautiful things to live. So let's list all these things. So, what's so nice... come on, you can't think of anything.

 Maybe because there is nothing.

Sometimes I hate that I am goo in debating against myself. The I guess it is the rooftop for me