Time doesn't wait, but I will.
Things got worse for me, I mean I couldn't wait to see her more often, I've been writing little notes in my room and just putting them together in a book and hide it under my bed, honestly I think I'm in love but is it a foolish thing to do?.
Purposely, I want to meet her today just to feel what I felt again, so after school I got to the store just in time for my work and I didn't expect to see her today but she was all that I was thinking about, she got me hopelessly in love with her, completely. From the day I knew her name to the day she showed interest in me it felt like there's this missing piece in my life and she had it all along, my shift was 20 minutes to be done and there was no sign of her coming.
Then I got to the overthinking part again is it me, did I say something stupid the other day or did I scare her off. All these questions, and no answers but I knew if she showed up they'd be answered, I wish there was a button I could press that made people fall in love at the same time. 'Alarm rings, and just like that my shift was over.
I got up sprinter and just went straight home, on my way home I saw her car passing by and going to the store
"what should I do? Should I head back to the store and pretend I forgot something?"
Words that were running through my mind at the time because I had to talk to her again, I mean if you could only see the way she looks at me or her laugh maybe just maybe you'd understand why I had to see her again. But If I get back to the store everyone will know I like the girl and I'm following her around, I can't have everyone thinking that. If I'm honest I must confess my feelings for her so I had a plan to stay around the same block she'd pass coming back from the store. What to do next is up to later, right now I just have to pretend my skateboard is broken or something like that.
After some time she finally came back and I held sprinter in my hand and was asking for a lift, it wasn't really broken. She stopped and gave me a lift, we had some funny conversations and mini arguments about which burger was better. I like the way she smiled, she was kind and had this little scar above her left ear that was shaped like a grape, which I liked. So she dropped me off my place and went straight to her place, and when I went to my room, I figured that sprinter was still in her car and I remembered that I lied about My skateboard being broken to Susan just to be close to her and just a couple minutes later she texted me saying.
Susan " Guess what, your skateboard isn't broken"
I just shook my head really hard and felt bad about that, so I didn't reply to her text, but I had to, so I just told her the truth that all I did was to just get her attention and be close to her because I liked her. It didn't go so well, she told me that she hates people who lie to her it makes her feel used. That's what her boyfriend used to do all the time and she said I was doing the same thing, it's like she can't find guys that aren't lying to her constantly.
"I'm just a guy in your life, and I would like to be more than that, if you give me a chance, I really want to know the real you" that's what I told her over a text which she replied.
"If you want my attention so bad, you don't have to be a lie about it"
And that was the last text of the night from her.
