Life doesn't offer a referee
When I was born, the doctors found out that my heart was too big for my body and they couldn't do surgery at that time, so I was kept in the hospital for quite a while. They continue to do tests on me and try to figure the best way for me to live with my condition.
After sometime, my parents were able to take me home but there were some ups and downs with my condition but as I grew older my condition started to fade away, and by fading I mean it's still there just doesn't bother me much.
I couldn't be like any other normal kid my parents made it clear to me about that, no parties, no drinking, no fights mostly about the fighting part.
From time to time i would get some chest pains, dizziness, fatigue throat and jaw pain , heart burns and even irregular heartbeats and my parents were extra careful with me, so yeah I had a normal childhood just like any other kid.
We often visited the hospital and the doctors would say it's best for me to avoid things that would bring damage to my heart that included video games too, flying or driving and sports. Gosh I love my life because I can't do the things that I really want to do.
I felt like I wasn't in control of my heart and it controlled me and no the other way around. But in the meantime when I was 7, i didn't get any symptoms and my dad bought me a skateboard which you now know as Sprinter, so like I said Sprints has always been there for me, we have so much history together. I think you're all caught up now, i hope so.
Now let's get back the part when the doctor came in with some news.
When the doctor came in, he said that my heart showed some strong signs of attraction towards something so he had to ask me about my recent encounters and that's when i told him about Susan. The doctor said
" I don't think there's a cure for this condition, I'm doubtful, the only solution for you to recover and be well is a heart transplant procedure, I'm afraid before you get a new heart you're not supposed to fall in love, I'm sorry, it's too risky given your condition i would want you to take this to a stop for a while until we find you a new heart."
How do you respond to that? Because I couldn't, how could life be so unfair, no matter what i do it will always turn out to be bad for me. All I really wanted was Susan and if loving her could kill me, then that's the price I'll have to pay. I have done everything the doctors said all my life I've been trying to live the way my parents want the way my heart wants but not for this, I'm sorry heart but you're dead wrong about this, you don't get to ruin the only person I've ever loved.
My parents told me to stay away from her too, and I should stop working at the grocery store for a while, the grocery store was the only place I get to see Susan after work.
When we got home, I just went straight to my bedroom, thinking about what just had happened, there was a part of me that thought my parents were right but loving Susan has been the best thing that has happened to me for a while and I knew I had to make the right choice for myself.
I stayed home for two days straight, mostly in my bed, I kept my room dark enough I didn't want to see or talk to anyone if it wasn't her. Her face was all I saw in my dreams, her laugh was all that I could hear and even though I had my earphones on I could still hear her voice. What is this, what is happening to me, am I this crazy or is it how people feel when they're madly in love.
I wanted to text her and tell her what was going on, but I didn't and was afraid she'd react as my parents and stayed away from me. How could I tell her, that the only thing that was keeping me alive and killing me at the same time was her.
I needed to clear my head and I went for a walk, near the abandoned railway station around the corner and just walked on the railroad since there were no actual trains and the station hasn't been used for quite a while. I saw someone from a far going straight the rail, wait a minute could it be, I mean there's only one person who walks that way and I called her phone to see if it was really her, when I called her she reached her jacket and pulled out her phone, when she picked up I told her to look behind and then she saw me.
