I don't need no light to see you SHINE

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TWs: Past manipulation/torture/ejection, self-deprecation. Stay safe :)

A white planet lay on the outskirts of the solar system. Alone. He was shaking with anguish.

He let out a low growl, staring through the debris where he blasted through. Once, he had called them friends, but now... nothing. They were never his friends.

A storm raged on within him, one that could rival Uranus.

Why couldn't they see? He was just trying to get their attention, and now no one would listen to him again.

He wandered the ethereal beyond the Kuiper belt, searching for something to do, something to pass the time. He found nothing, but an empty abyss.

He figured out a way to hide his true color. From then on, he didn't go by 'Nibiru' or 'Erebus'. Instead, he went by Nine. He preferred it that way.

Then, as he fell into a deep sleep, a voice spoke to him;

"Don't you wish everything could change?"

And if that didn't entice Nine, well...

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"So, your true color is white?" Pinwheel inquired.

"Yep. Every bit down to my core is frozen solid." Nine waved his hand, "My wind speed is more chaotic than Uranus, my gravity is unparalleled compared to Neptune, and my orbital period is unlike any other celestial being  in the solar system."

"Does anyone else know?"

"The planets. I don't think they care, to be honest. I'll always be the same old X to them; an outcast from the start."

"Neptune cares."

"Of course he does, he's Neptune- he cares about everyone the same."

Pinwheel laughed, "Do you think he'd care about Sagittarius A* if he'd knew what it did to you?"

"Well, no, but-"

"Do you think he'd let the others treat you like a bad guy for everything you've done?"

"...No."

"And all those times Neptune visited you, sometimes more than once a day- you're telling me he doesn't care about you more than the others? Not even a smidge?"

Nine didn't respond, his mouth opening and closing like a fish out of water.

"I mean, he even calls you his brother despite celestial beings having no form of connections whatsoever!"

Nine sucked in a breath, a shaky chuckle pouring from his lips, "Hah, you're right... why are you right?"

"Heh, it wasn't easy... I did have to search through some of your memories though, hope you don't mind..."

Nine swiped a hand over his eye, "Not at all... you- thank you, Pinwheel."

"For what? I'm merely the messenger." Pin hummed.

"For helping me realize... I don't actually know what I'm doing." Nine's frown deepened, "I can't tell the others and I can't trust anyone, not even myself."

"Uhm... I don't want to alarm you, but there's someone behind you."

Nine craned his head to peer behind him. His eyes widened slightly, "Sedna? What are you doing here?"