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Chapter NINETEEN:
Grace

I collapsed onto my bed, staring blankly at the ceiling as if it could offer me some kind of answer. The call with Tobias had left me reeling, and the room seemed to close in around me. I felt like I was suffocating under the weight of all my choices, all the expectations that had been forced upon me.

"Perfect," I muttered to myself with a bitter laugh. "Absolutely perfect. My life is just a masterpiece of irony. An arranged marriage, a secret escape plan, and a family that expects me to play the part of a dutiful daughter. What more could a girl want?"

I turned onto my side, staring at the wall. The stark reality of the situation had hit me like a ton of bricks. Tobias's plan was audacious, bordering on reckless. But what choice did we have? It was either play along and wait for the right moment or resign ourselves to a life of submission.

Just then, I heard the soft knock on my door. My mother's voice followed, cheerful and oblivious to the storm inside my head.

"Grace, darling, are you ready? I thought we could go out for dinner. It's been a while since we had some family time."

I blinked, momentarily disoriented by her sudden shift in mood. Family time? The last thing I felt like doing was pretending everything was normal. But there was a note of insistence in her voice that made it clear she wouldn't take no for an answer.

"Sure, Mom," I replied, my voice coming out quieter than I'd intended. I sat up and ran a hand through my tousled hair, trying to muster some semblance of enthusiasm. "Just give me a minute."

As I pulled myself together, I glanced around my room, noting how everything felt so out of place. The pristine, organized life I was expected to lead seemed like a cruel joke now.

I joined my mother in the hallway, where she was already dressed up, her face glowing with an expression that was almost too bright for my dark mood.

"Is everything alright, Grace?" she asked, her eyes searching mine with an almost maternal concern.

"Yeah, everything's fine," I said, forcing a smile. "Just a bit of a long day, you know?"

She patted my arm and led the way out of the house. As we drove to the restaurant, I glanced out the window, lost in thought. The city lights were a blur, and I felt detached from everything. My mind kept drifting back to Tobias's plan—how we would navigate this tangled mess of deception and real emotion.

When we arrived at the restaurant, my mother's cheerful chatter was a stark contrast to the whirlwind of thoughts in my head. I smiled and nodded at the right moments, but inside, I felt like I was living a lie.

The dinner was a blur of small talk and polite laughter. I played my part, all the while feeling like a spectator in my own life. I couldn't help but marvel at how easily my mother had shifted from one emotion to another, while I was caught in the relentless storm of uncertainty and fear.

As we sat in the dimly lit restaurant, my mother was animatedly recounting stories from my childhood, her eyes sparkling with nostalgia. I picked at my food, struggling to stay engaged. The conversation had taken a turn down memory lane, a path I wasn't sure I had the strength to follow.

"You were such a curious baby, Grace," my mother said, her voice softening with affection. "Always reaching for things, exploring every corner of the house. I remember the first time you discovered the garden; you were so thrilled with the flowers. It was like watching a little explorer in action."

I smiled faintly, though the sentiment felt distant. "Mom, why are you bringing this up now?"

She looked momentarily puzzled but quickly recovered. "Oh, just reminiscing. I've been thinking about how much you've grown and how much I miss those simple times. You were always my little sunshine."

There was a pause, and then I interrupted, feeling a pang of frustration. "Why did you suddenly come back to see me? You haven't been this attentive in years."

Her smile faltered for a split second before she composed herself. "Grace, you've always been my priority. I've been so busy with everything, but I felt this deep sadness knowing you've been away, living your own life. It's not about me wanting to control you, but about me missing the chance to be closer to you."

Her eyes, though sincere in their own way, glimmered with an edge of agitation. I could tell she was trying to present her feelings in the most flattering light possible, but I was not in the mood to buy into her carefully crafted facade.

I took a deep breath and decided to voice the question that had been nagging at me. "If you missed me so much, why are you suddenly so enthusiastic about this marriage proposal? Isn't that going to keep me away from you even more?"

My mother's expression shifted, her agitation turning into a more controlled, if not manipulative, calm. "Oh, Grace, you must understand. This marriage is a wonderful opportunity for you. It's not just about tradition—it's about securing your future, ensuring you're cared for and provided for. You know how much I want the best for you. It's not about pushing you away; it's about ensuring you have everything you need."

I stared at her, feeling the pieces of the puzzle slowly falling into place. Her words were dressed up in pretty packaging, but the underlying message was clear: her love came with conditions, her affection was part of a grander scheme to ensure that I stayed where she wanted me to be.

I looked away, feeling a resignation settling over me. "I see," I said quietly. "I understand now."

As we finished the meal and headed back home, the weight of the conversation hung heavily in the air. Alone in my room, I reflected on the exchange. My mother's carefully constructed stories, her sudden show of affection, and her manipulative justifications all started to make sense. She wasn't simply a concerned parent; she was a strategist, wielding emotional leverage to get what she wanted.

"This is the game she's been playing," I murmured to myself, the realization dawning on me. "She's been controlling me all along, masking it with love and concern."

The understanding was both freeing and unsettling. I knew now that I needed to be even more cautious. If I was to outmaneuver not only my father but also my mother's calculated moves, I had to remain one step ahead. My freedom was worth the fight, and I would not be easily swayed by the manipulative tactics that had been woven into my life from the start.

I would navigate this chaotic world, and somehow, I would find a way to break free. The stakes were high, but I couldn't afford to back down now.

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