VILLANO

WILDFLOWER

Now playing...WILDFLOWER- By Billie Eilish

     WARNINGS: flashbacks, cussing

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This whole chapter is based off of Anthony's and Solace's POV!! And the whole thing is a flashback!

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                      ANTHONYS POV

                        FLASHBACK
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               "SHE WAS YOUR GIRL"

Cars passed by me on the highway, some faster than me, some slower. My body was full of anxiety, fear and regret. Why the fuck would i do that? The back seat was full of my clothes and other stuff that was once in the house me and Calimara shared. I could barely focus on the road in front of me because it was all on Calimara.

"YOU FELL OUT OF LOVE, AND BOTH LET GO"
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                      SOLACES'S POV
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"SHE WAS CRYING ON MY SHOULDER, ALL I COULD DO WAS HOLD HER"

My best friend's tears stained my shirt. Cries, sniffles, and reassurances filled the room. I felt so bad, but mostly upset. How could he do this? Cali was a lover girl, there was no denying nor doubting that. She was the kindest person i knew.

"He said he loved me." Those words echoed in my mind. I've seen my best friend cry, but never like this. Cali was always one of those people to hold back their feelings, because they felt weak and a burden. So i knew she was pained inside

"People lie..and we just have to deal with it sometimes." I didn't know what to say. I definitely wasn't the one to come too when you needed comfort, i was horrible at that. I've always just been used to Cali laughing her feelings away.

"But..he was everything..he helped me." Cali's cries pained me. I hated seeing her sad..it was like a nightmare. She was shaking, crying and heartbroken, all while being comforted by me.
"Don't worry about him..he's just an asshole who didn't care." I tried, I really did. I tried my best to comfort her. But i was horrible at it
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                      ANTHONY'S POV
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   "WELL GOOD THINGS DONT LAST"

Everything reminds me of her. My car, my clothes, even the city. My knuckles tightly held the stirring wheel for dear life as the blood runs down my nose. The red light illuminated my face, practically blinding my eyes, just like Calimara's beauty. My eyes scan the road, trying to calm myself down.

I tried not to think about Cali, but every time i think of something different, my mind always leads back to her. A part of my mind is focused on Cali, but i'm also stuck on what happened at the club. Of course i had to be stupid, get drunk then kiss some girl i don't even know the name of.

I wanted to text cali, but i already assumed she block me, what what's the point? I didn't even notice the light turned green until i heard a loud honk sound. I quickly start driving straight again. I tried to cut on the radio, but every song reminded me of Cali.

Fuck. The universe hates me right now. I was 5 miles over the speed limit but i could give a fuck less. Them more and more i drive, the more i missed Cali. I know this is all my fault, but i just couldn't bare to think that i'd never be able to see her walk down that isle with me.

I'd never be able to say my vows. I'll never be able to take her on a honeymoon. I'll never be able to see her again. Maybe this is how it's supposed to be. Maybe the universe knew we needed to break up. Maybe..we just weren't meant to be together.

I knew that was a load of bullshit. We were meant to be together, we were everything and she was my everything. Everything about Cali was perfect. Her voice, her acting skills, the way she walked, the way she did her hair. She was just my sun when i was a moon.

All i wanted to do was give her one last hug. But i can't do that anymore. I messed everything up. Everything went downhill. My phone was silent. No notifications from anything, or anyone. Why did i gen go to that stupid party? Why didn't i just wish Malik a happy birthday and go on with everything?

Why couldn't i have gotten sick so that i couldn't go out anyway? What if i just stayed home with Cali? What if i didn't get drunk? What if i had never met that girl? So many what if flooded my mind, i was surprised i didn't drive the fucking car off of the highway.

So many cars filled the road. So many families, couples, children, parents, friends. Yet, none of them was me and Cali listening to our favorite songs with froyo in our hands, living a happy life. None of them was us. None of them was what i needed right now.

The city was dark and full of people, smoke, chaos, cars, stores, shops, houses, restaurants and for me, traffic. I just really needed to get out of this car and sit down in silence. All i could hear was people arguing on the road, honks from other cars, my ignition, loud music and just nonsense.

I needed silence, a place for me to think and feel at ease. Maybe i needed to smoke. Or maybe i just needed rest. I needed a lot. But what i needed the most...was to see Cali in my arms, half asleep, or telling me about her day. All i needed was her.

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