Hearts in conflict

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Anhad's Pov

she left crying

those tears .. those tears in her brown eyes were doing something to me.. as if pricking every cell of my heart.. sucking blood out of my body.. taking out my life bit by bit .

but it is better

better than her crying her whole life with me

she'll cry now but then she will not have someone as useless as me to cry over.

and to be true she was right too.. we've been each other's throat all our lives .. she can't love me ..that's my thing that I love her and I don't think I'll ever stop because that's what I've been doing since childhood... but sometimes letting someone you love go is the best thing if it is meant to be yours then it'll come around.

I came to my room.. layed on my bed.. still couldn't sleep ..

I move to my study table

and pick out my diary opening it I live every memory of me and Heer .. our childhood fights .. to adulthood spats.. everything..

this is the 10th diary which is going to be full just two pages left and you say that you don't love her- shut up shut up NO

I finally found two blank pages at the end and start to pen down all my feelings all the things I've been going through...

raat ke 2 baj gaye hai so nahi paa raha hu baar baar man me sirf ye sawaal aaraha h ki vo kaisi hogi.. kya abhi bhi ro rahi hogi

soyi hogi ya nahi 

waheguru ... aap to sb jante hai na .. please.. please koi aisa ishara dedo jisse mai smjh jau ki mujhe kya karna hai, heeri or mere bhavishya me kya hai ..

mai thak gaya hu ab .. vo kehti hai usne calls kare messages kare par usee kaise batau ki mera phone kho gaya tha or us vajah se mai uske itne calls and messages nahi dekh paya .. 

waheguru please bass ek ishara ..

mujhe pata hai Heeri ka .. agar vo sach me mujhse pyar karti hai to nahi manegi .. try karegi.. hamesha karti hai jaise.. just like the fighter she is ..

Heeri iss baar mainu akela na chdii~

tuhada hon vala pati~

Anhad (anny)

all night tossing ono the bed ..

the time came when a low light entered my room

it was early morning . time to gym

I moved to the gym.

It took me 2 hours to completely take off my mind from yesterday's events and hit the gym.

by the time I came I saw the ladies in the kitchen.

I quickly move to my room and took a relaxing shower so that the lack of sleep of last night can be suppressed.

I need a black coffee .Period.

I got ready to go to office and move down for my coffee.

"amma meri coffee laa de aaj jldi jana hai oh US vale clients ke baare me bataya tha na vo aarahe hai "

I said to my maa while sittng at my chair will everyone except her present there.

where is she.. is she okay?.. did I overdo yesterday?.. please just let her be okay god.. waheguru raksha kari

I saw krushna didi coming from the kitchen with ice and water in a bowl

"krushna beta ye kaha le jaa rahi hai"