I Still Love You

16.

Everything was so overwhelming for Jisoo. He just couldn't understand what to think anymore. He thought maybe after performing these marriage rituals, they'll go back to their lives just like before but after hearing Dokyeom's vows, Jisoo was left stunned. He knew that the younger loved him but he always brushed it off but after hearing what Dokyeom said, he just couldn't believe it. LOVE terrified him to the core. He just didn't want that thing in his life anymore but nothing really worked according to him in his life.

He kept on staring at Dokyeom without blinking. Why does he love him? This question kept on roaming inside Jisoo's mind on a repeat. He wanted the answer to this but this was not the right place. Every person here thought that this marriage was happening because they both love each other but no one knew the real reason and he liked it that way. He can't afford seeing disappointment in Dokyeom's parents for their son. He just can't.

Unknowingly Dokyeom's words had a huge impact on Jisoo. Dokyeom was unaware of the turmoil his words had created inside Jisoo's heart. Jisoo never heard such words from his ex-boyfriend. He was always reminded of how lucky he was to have Kinwo as his Boyfriend. Kinwo always degraded him for his appearance, never once told how pretty he looked. Jisoo always ignored this because maybe he thought that Kinwo loved him but how wrong he was.

Unknowingly, Jisoo took a step towards Dokyeom and tightened his grip around Dokyeom's hand. Obviously Dokyeom recognised the sudden movement of his hyung, it would be a shame if he didn't because his eyes had never left his hyung's face the moment he entered. How can he? His hyung is just so beautiful. He got a sudden urge to compliment his hyung so he blurted out the words, "You are so pretty".

Jisoo's eyes widen after hearing the compliment. He didn't expect Dokyeom to say this so openly. He face flushed and he immediately looked down.

"Very well. The vows are completed, please exchange your rings and seal this pure bond with a kiss." The priest announced and both exchanged their rings and now it was time to kiss each other and Jisoo's heart was beating at a speed of light.

Jisoo POV

I totally forgot about the kiss part. Oh My God! Do I really have to kiss him? Can't we skip this part. I was terrified at the thought of kissing Dokyeom but surprisingly it didn't disgust me. I was shocked but I quickly recovered from it and my focus shifted towards my husband to see him stepping towards me. I could see he was being hesitant, his eyes were showing how vulnerable he was feeling right now and I just wanted to take every hesitation away from him. Instinctively I smiled and nodded. I was panicking from inside but now it was not the time to dwell on it. Dokyeom was more important.

All hesitation and vulnerability left his eyes and he smiled at me which shows that he knows I was being considerate. He took one more step towards me and held my waist softly. It was after ages I let someone this close to me and honestly I was feeling good in his embrace. He placed his other hand on my cheeks and slowly kissed my forehead. I closed my eyes with the sensation of his lips on my skin and for the first time after the incident I felt comfortable with someone else's touch.

His lips left my skin but the feeling still lingered there. I slowly opened my eyes and saw him looking at me with so much love and adoration that my breath hitched. He kept on stroking my cheeks with his thumb. "Don't ever submit yourself to me if you are not comfortable." His voice was so soft and soothing like a lullaby but those words brought tears to my eyes. How can he understand me so well without even me saying anything. I just nodded and passed on a small smile towards his direction.

Third POV

From then on everything went on at the speed of light. And here they are sitting inside the car and going towards Dokyeom's house. There was complete silence inside the car, no one spoke anything. Jisoo was really nervous about his panic attacks and how he will explain them to Dokyeom. On the other hand Dokyeom was satisfied that now no one will be able to touch his hyung and if they try to do so then he will be there to protect him.

The car stopped in front of Dokyeom's new house which he built here after three years of his departure. Dokyeom went out of the car and went towards Jisoo's side and opened his door. Jisoo let out a small thank you and they both walked towards their new life and beginnings. Jisoo was welcomed warmly by Dokyeom's parents and after so long he felt parents' love. He now finally has a family. This thought itself brought warmth in his chest.

Everyone was tired after a long hectic day so Dokyeom's parents said their goodbyes and left to go to their mansion.
It was just them in the big house. Dokyeom's house was nothing less than a mansion with a modern interior and exterior with bright colors inside. It was like heaven and Jisoo immediately knew that he loved the house.

"Did you like it?" Dokyeom asked softly while staring at his hyung. His eyes were full of love and admiration but there was a hint of something close to possessiveness. Jisoo turned his attention towards Dokyeom and slowly nodded his head with a small smile playing on his lips. "I love it. It's really beautiful." Jisoo said in a whisper while looking around. But Dokyeom was just looking at him as if he was unable to look away.

"I Love You Hyung", knowingly or unknowingly Dokyeom out those words which he tried so hard to hide in the past but not now. Jisoo is his husband and now he is tired of hiding his feelings.

Jisoo's eyes widened at a sudden confession. He looked at Dokyeom with shock and fearful eyes. "I-I-" Jisoo tried forming words but was failing miserably.  He didn't know what to say. He doesn't want to give younger any wrong ideas. He was about to say something but Dokyeom interrupted him.

"I don't expect anything from you hyung. Just let me love you."

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