Ayushree

19

Ayushree's POV

Living in this house sometimes feels like living in a cage. Everytime you need to do something, first you need permission. I was living like this only before marriage, and after marriage instead of things getting better, they are worsening.

After doing work for whole day, when I think that for sometime I will talk to my husband, each day either he is working or he just wants my body.

I don't get a proper rest in night, and after that waking up early again in the morning and repeating the tasks is a difficult thing.

Only good thing that I felt is talking to , maa, Siya and Dhruv bhaiya. Siya and bhaiya both are like my friends, they are not like others.

Talking of Siya, she is just 18, and need to complete her education and make her career, instead of getting married and ruining her life.

Yesterday she told me that she want to continue her studies and she had to give an entrance exam to get a college. She registered for the exam without telling to anyone and had been studying for it over an year.

Her exam is after a week, and she want me to accompany her to jer exam centre, because apparently no one will allow her to go outside, neither me. But we have to make an excuse so that we could go.

At first I was afraid that if someone got to know, we will be in a huge trouble but after thinking I realised that I had to take the risk, for Siya. Once she clears the exam, Dhruv bhaiya will make everyone agree to allow Siya to continue her studies.

"Ayushree!!" Maa called me and looked at her coming into the aangan, which is only for the family, no one especially male outsiders are not allowed here.

"Ji Maa, you need anything?" I asked her.

"No, I just wanted to talk to you. It's been long we sat and talked. You just do work whole day." She said sitting beside me and caressing my hair lovingly.

"So, I hope you must be habitual of living here now."

"Yes Maa, I am trying to understand things more better." I said and she nodded. It felt like she wanted to say something.

"Beta, I know you might not like the behaviour of you dadi and adrakansh sometimes. But this is how things are going on in this house since long. Changing them isn't easy, but I hope you will understand." She said

"If I were to decide, I would've never let these conservative things happen. And besides that, I know dealing with adrakansh might also not be easy for you. He is brought up in this way, that females are weak and are meant to be oppressed. Every day when I see you, I just remember my younger self. I used to be just like you, all tired of these oppressive rules." She added.

I don't know why but my eyes welled up hearing her. Before she could say further I hugged her tightly and tears began to fall on my cheeks. She hugged me back and caressed my back lovingly.

I missed my family a lot in these five months, but I didn't visit them because there wasn't the tradition of girl visiting her family after marriage here. Nor did dadi gave me permission afterwards saying I could visit them anytime, and I should focus on my marriage life.

Today, after so many days I felt the motherly love. I couldn't control myself.

"Maa, I am so tired of all this." I couldn't help but say.

"I know daughter, I know, it's not easy. Bit you know we women are warriors, that's why we are able to endure all this. " She said breaking the hug and wiping off my tears.

"For how long? My whole life I have seen my bhabhis living the same life, then me, and from generations this is being continued. Why? What have we done? Why are we being punished for the sins that we haven't committed? Forget committing, we don't even know what our sins are?" I let it out.

"We haven't. It's just things are going on like this. We just needed to break these restrictions. We need to speak up for ourselves. I didn't have the courage to do so, but daughter, I believe that you will speak for yourself, you will not let your life be wasted. Hmm?" She said

I could emotions in her eyes, her eyes spoke vulnerability and years of being oppressed.

I nodded to her words, though I don't have any idea how am I going to do this bit still, I cannot let my life wasted. I am a human being, just like men are.
.
.
.

Heyy Lovelies!

Next chapter updated!

Target for next update: 60 votes and 25 comments

I know update is short, but I just joined college, and life is not being easy with me. Everything is just so hectic, I can't even tell.

Besides that, the response on "~Ayushree~" is getting better and we crossed 12k views!!!

That is the only motivation I am getting to write further.

Thank you to all my readers. I don't know how to express my feelings. But it means a lot to me.

I hope you all will cooperate with me and my tuti-futi writing skills.

Till then be happy and be safe!🩷