I am, without a shadow of a doubt, nocturnal. No matter how much or how little sleep I get, no matter the time, I get this massive rush of energy ~12 am, and I feel... Alive.
Sounds crazy? Yeah, probably because I am, but you should already know this if you've read this far in my little journal of rambling. When that rush of energy hits, all of my senses heighten, I think faster, I feel stronger... Sometimes to an extent that almost scares me. If I meditate in this state, I can literally feel my blood pressure pushing outwards on my veins, I can taste the air, I can hear and see everything. It's like... The thing about ADHD, is that it's not really a deficit to attention, but rather you notice everything and because of that you become distracted, and your thought process is too fast for you to keep up with, but when that night time burst of energy kicks in, I find it easy to actually focus on what I see and I can keep track of my even more accelerated thoughts.
This isn't something new, I've always felt more alive under the moon and in the night time air, more energetic, but it's become something more... And it's honestly a bit annoying.
I don't live near woods, and I've been having to get up ~8 or 9 every morning, which isn't much, but because of me having so. Much. Energy, I just can't sleep...
Those of you who'll bother to read this, what do you think?
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Dissonant Madness
HumorThis is where I'll be writing when I get bored, probably going to do personal updates, maybe, but what is assured is that much weirdness shall occur.
