It all comes to you. (OMEGAVERSE) (Ohmnanon)

Again, Why Me?

Non's POV:

"Alpha, Alpha, Alpha." I cried as I woke up from my sleep.

What happened? 

I have some memories from last night. I smelled the same pheromones as I did in college yesterday before I fainted, from beside the alley of the apartments in front of my building. I couldn't myself but move towards it. And as soon as I was about to leave I got hit by a wave. What was it? Maybe I was in my heat. Once you have smelled the scent of your alpha, and you know he is nearby you start going to heat regularly, once a month. At least, that's what Papa New told me about and that's what happened to Phuwin. But even then, Phu got his heat two weeks after he met that Bastard soulmate of his. Then why did I go into heat the very next day?

Also, I remember meeting my alpha. He was in the alley with me, though his face is a blur in my memory. And the only thing I remember about him is that his wolf's name is Pat.

I got out of the bed to find myself half-naked. And I was wearing a long shirt. It's a bit over my size. But absolutely something I would wear. I was about to go to the bathroom when I saw a note on my bedside table. It was folded neatly and kept on the bedside of the desk.

I opened the note, and it read:

Hi, I am Pat (your mate, if you remember me). We met last night and you were in your heat. I dropped you off at your place. In all honesty, I don't know how much of this you'll remember, but we did kiss. But I promise I didn't do anything to you. I saw you wriggling on your couch and it hurt the wolf so I left my shirt with you. You can keep it, you can nest with it in the future. 

Before, I say anything. I want you to know that your consent wasn't the only reason I did not do anything with you. It's also the fact that I did not want to cheat on my girlfriend. This brings me to the main conversation, I have a girlfriend. And I have dated her since middle school. We've been together and we love each other a lot. She is my one true love. And as much as I am sure that the moon goddess is never wrong. I also am pretty sure that she was the one I was supposed to end with. I love her a lot and I'll do anything for her. Even if it means going against the moon goddess. 

And as you would've understood by now. I would be rejecting you. I know it feels like I dropped a bomb like it was nothing, but trust me when I say this, Pat is suffering. And Pat is suffering to the point that I am sure he's going to make me suffer for the rest of my life. 

Rejecting or being rejected is a decision I'll leave to you. If you want to reject me before, it's fine by me. I want you to know that I wish the best for you and for any future endeavors. However, I can't love you. My love is already reserved by someone else and I tend to keep it that way.

If you want to meet me and talk about the whole thing, please find me in the center of the Communication faculty. You can take as much time as you want. You don't have to force yourself to meet me anytime soon. Thank you for understanding.

A tear fell from my eye. Why me? Did I not suffer enough? All my life I had been tough. I had been the most mature version of myself. I have protected myself from any sort of resentment since that incident. I promised myself to be strong. Strong for my dads. Only in the hope that one day I'll find my mate and I'll have a chance to be weak. I will have my chance to be vulnerable because there will be someone to hold me. And it would be an opportunity to be free from the mask I wear every day of my life.

And now that I had my chance. I had someone to be vulnerable for, I did not even get a single day of happiness. And what's worse is I am going to get rejected. And P'Blue has been rejected before and I saw him in his vulnerable state. And I might be strong but what if I am not strong enough to go through this?

A tear fell on the piece of paper when I heard my phone ring. I picked up the phone to realize Papa New was calling. I let the phone ring while I tried to compose myself. Every time I do not pick up his phone, he calls me twice so I knew he was going to call again. When I calmed down I picked up the call and answered in a fake sleepy voice.

"Papa Newwiee."

"What? Don't you have classes today?"

"I am skipping."

"Why? Did you meet your soulmate or something?" He said giggling. It was an inside joke. Every time I told him I'd be taking a break, he'd always call me out for meeting my soulmate. But this time it hurt. This time it really knocked on the door that was bloody on the inside.

"As if. I am just tired. Also, I have a huge project to work on so I'd rather stay home and work on it."

"Don't keep lazing around then. I'll call you again in an hour to wake you up."

"I won't. I have to go meet...... a friend."

"Okay. Sleep well, baby. I'll call you in an hour."

.....................................

I was talking to Pat when that jerk, Pond showed up. I just realized that they were friends. 

And as expected, Pond and I got into a verbal argument upon seeing each other. I was not going to do anything because my heart was feeling weak but I was not going to take his shit either. 

The next thing I knew was that I was about to be punched but Pat blocked Pond. He stopped the punch and jumped in front of him.

"Don't fucking dare." said Pat making his friend's eyes go wide.

The fact that he saved me made me happy. The things I was thinking in the morning about being vulnerable for that one person. I thought he'd be the one who could handle it. And now that I've seen he can. It hurts more than ever. I knew I could be my weakest self in front of him and he'd hold me in his strong arms and make me feel safe. But at the same time knowing it's not for me. His love is reserved for someone else, I think I made the right decision to let him go. If our bond and my heat can't make his love budge. Nothing will. So I am happy to accept my fate and be strong for everyone forever. I don't think I deserve to be vulnerable. Maybe that's why I am getting punished. I just have to be the strongest omega in the college. And I'll do it. I'll go through that pain. I'll call Papa New and tell him everything. And I'll be strong. I'll be strong during the rejection and be strong. I'll be strong for Papa New.