Colliding Hearts | Taehyung X Jungkook X Jimin ff

Chapter 13: Silent Confessions (Jungkook's POV)

Jungkook's Inner Thoughts

What have I done?

The question echoed in his head over and over, each time piercing deeper. He couldn't shake the image of Y/N, the way she looked at him today—hurt, angry, betrayed. Her words had cut through him like a knife, leaving wounds that no amount of time could heal.

I didn't want this. I never wanted to hurt her...

His reflection stared back at him from the glass, a shadow of the man he used to be. He used to be confident, sure of himself. But now? Now he was a mess—broken, confused, and filled with regret. He rubbed his hands over his face, trying to shake the overwhelming guilt that gripped his chest.

Why didn't I just tell her? Why did I let everything fall apart like this?

He let out a bitter laugh, but it was hollow, empty. The truth was, he had been scared. Scared of losing her, scared of the consequences, scared of everything. So he'd made the wrong choice. He'd let the fear control him, push him away from the one person who had ever made him feel truly alive.

But now she's marrying someone else.

His chest tightened at the thought. The idea of her with someone else—someone who wasn't him—made his blood boil. He could barely stand it. But what right did he have to stop her? What right did he have to walk back into her life after everything he'd done?

She deserves to be happy... even if it's not with me.

The words tasted like poison in his mouth, but he forced himself to accept them. She deserved more than the pain he'd caused her. She deserved someone who could give her the world, not someone who was trapped in a life he couldn't control.

But still... I love her.

He slammed his fist against the wall, frustration bubbling to the surface. Love wasn't supposed to feel like this. It wasn't supposed to tear you apart from the inside. But that's exactly what it was doing to him. He loved her so much it hurt. Every part of him ached with the thought of losing her, of never holding her again, never hearing her laugh or seeing that smile that could light up his darkest days.

What if I fight for her? The thought crossed his mind before he could stop it. What if I don't let her go?

But even as he considered it, he knew it wasn't that simple. Y/N didn't trust him anymore. She didn't believe in the love they once shared. And why should she? He'd been the one to shatter that trust, to walk away when she needed him the most.

I should have told her everything...

The truth was a bitter pill to swallow. His parents, the threats, the pressure—it had all been too much. But Y/N didn't know. She had no idea what he'd been through, what he'd sacrificed to protect her. And now it was too late. She believed he'd cheated, believed that everything between them had been a lie.

If only she knew how much I love her...

Jungkook ran a hand through his hair, the frustration bubbling up again. He wanted to scream, to break something, anything, to release the torrent of emotions that had been building up inside him for years. But nothing would change. No amount of anger or regret would fix what was broken.

Maybe I don't deserve her.

The thought gnawed at him, sinking deep into his soul. Maybe he was the villain in her story. Maybe he was the one who had ruined everything.

But even if he didn't deserve her, even if she hated him, there was one thing he couldn't deny.

I'll always love you, Y/N... even if it kills me.

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