Always on the Run

27. Drunken confessions

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It's been thirty days and I've heard nothing from Jamie. Not. A. Single. Thing. And I'm angry. Seriously what the hell is he trying to do? If he's got cold feet I'm going to murder him. I know he's a player but he can't lead a girl on like this. I know I told him that I wouldn't be that clingy girl but when he doesn't speak to me for a whole month and I'm doomed to marry someone I don't want to...well sorry but if I'm clingy I have a right to.

Forcing a smile, I wave goodbye to the girls I'm working on reception with then walk out from behind the counter and make my way to my room. It's two o'clock on Friday afternoon and I'm finally finishing work. Although I sort of wish I wasn't. When I work I don't think about what's happening tomorrow. Now that I'm done, I've got nothing to keep my mind occupied.

A lead weight has settled in the pit of my stomach at the thought of marrying Nadeem. No one has been able to get near to Prisca to talk to her. She's still around but she won't talk about it at all. No one can broach the topic without her blowing up so they've just left it alone. She won't even talk to me and I've figured out what she's trying to do. She's purposely being difficult so I have no choice but to marry Nadeem.

I got so desperate at one point I even spoke to Nicolas. Do you know what response I got? He just said he had no control over his wife and he couldn't stop it. Then he walked away and hasn't spoken to me since. That was two weeks ago. I am beyond frustrated because all Toby's talk of 'you're the one to fix this family' has been a load of rubbish. I can't do a damn thing and now I've got Jamie's nonappearance to add to it. I'm a mess.

There is only one way out of this. Refuse to marry Nadeem, embarrass him and be stopped from seeing Toby ever again.

How the hell am I supposed to do that? Sometimes I'm too nice for my good. The truth is though, if it was only Nadeem I'd be embarrassing and Toby wasn't involved, I would probably do it. But how can I lose contact with my brother?

Reaching my room, I unlock the door and rather than changing I just flop onto the bed with a sigh and stare up at the ceiling.

Closing my eyes, I let my body relax into the soft mattress. This time tomorrow the wedding will be taking place down at the beach. The hotel staff are in charge of setting everything up. All I have to do is get ready and turn up. I didn't even get to plan my own wedding. In a way I'm glad but it still seems so wrong. This is the second time I've had no control over my wedding and the second time I haven't wanted to go through with it. Do I just attract the wrong guys?

Shaking my head, I release another breath and focus on emptying my mind of all thoughts. I need to relax for and get away from the stress for a few minutes. Although I know that won't fix anything. After all, the couple of days I took after my dinner with Prisca proved pointless. I got nowhere so here I am, still doomed to marry Nadeem.

Stop thinking.

I groan and open my eyes. It's impossible to stop when in less than 24 hours I'll be at the altar, standing in front of Nadeem. Oh Jamie, where are you?

I tried trusting him, I know I should but when it's the night before the wedding there's only so much trusting I can do. This is a sign isn't it? In fact the entire year of my life has been a sign. I'm not supposed to ever be happy. First Marcus breaks my heart, then I marry the wrong guy then I get involved with Julian who turned out to be a bastard and now Jamie. I'm just not capable of being in a relationship, that's all there is to it.