My Birthday Gift

Don't lose yourself

Moon young pov ++

When I woke up in the morning my head was aching like hell, ok so this is hangover.

I remembered some words from last night before I could manage to live on this earth.

Wait..wait..wait..did I share my personal life to a complete stranger, I said panicking. What the hell was i thinking!!! I held my head in my hands and started kicking the blanket.

Flashback....

- "Now what to say to that stupid person who is so blinded by his love for women that he does not understand the difference between right and wrong".

- "You're talking about your father..."

- "Yeah I'm talking about my father"

- "It's my birthday and he doesn't even remember that and here, I'm celebrating my birthday with a complete stranger."

"Nothing new, he doesn't remember my mother as well. He always pisses me off and I also want to piss him off."

"That's why I'm saying if I'll be pregnant before getting married he'll be so upset and that's what I want. after all his name and fame is much more important than me for him I'll tarnish it." I said.

- "Can we become pregnant before getting married, is it possible??" He asked confused.

- "Not we but I", I replied to his funny question.

- "I mean you, I mean anyone, any girl!! And...and it's not even a good idea!! You can't take care of kid when you're reacting like a kid."

- "You don't know how children are born and I am a kid", I said sarcastically.

- "Maybe I don't know but I am atleast mature enough to know what is good for me."

- "Listen, I can handle it ok, I'm definitely ready to plan a child, I can take care of it"

- "We plan kids?? they are not born on their own??"

I laughed at his question.

- "You really don't know?? You're kidding right??"

- "Yeah, whatever, you should leave it's getting late,"

- "I don't want to go!!!!"
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I spat in the washbasin while brushing.

What!! What the hell did I talk to him!! You're so stupid moonyoung!!!

Ugh!! What to do?? It's ok it's not like I'm gonna meet him in future.

But what if he came for real, I don't even remember his face!! So stupid you are!!!

I said while leaving for the school as my so called "Family" has left for their vacation already.

Who cares about me?? I thought when I remembered a certain someone's words...

Listen, I know I'm not in the position of telling you anything personal as I'm just a stranger but I think.

"You shouldn't lose yourself just to get the attention of your father I know It hurts when we aren't the first priority of our parents but if you'll ask for their attention through something stupid, you will lose yourself, you will hate yourself. And trust me this is the worse feeling so please don't do anything that you started hating yourself."

I stopped.

"He was right!! I shouldn't do this to myself, I should love myself and should focus on my dreams instead of my long lost father."