Torn off

𝑪𝑯𝑨𝑷𝑻𝑬𝑹 𝑺𝑰𝑿

I sat in my home office at my desk frustrated. I couldn't believe I saw Nova at a club in fucking Las Vegas. Did she know I was going? She couldn't have, maybe it was a mishap. Or a sign.

I run my hands down my face. I haven't been able to get Nova completely off my mind. As I sat there, my phone dinged. I picked it up to see what Kethan had texted me.

Kethan: you missed a lot in Vegas man.

Noah: sure, I did.

Kethan: js sayin

I had left Vegas early after the whole Nova thing. I knew I couldn't continue the trip knowing Nova was somewhere to be found. As I put my phone down, I heard a knock at my door. I groan as I get up to answer it. As I walked up to the door, I opened it to something I didn't expect at all.

I laid in my bed as I soaked up all the regret in me. I couldn't believe I didn't have the guts to say something, but can you blame me?

As I walked to my kitchen, I decided to call Serenity. She almost picks up immediately after the first ring. "Did you talk to him?" she asks.

The silence on the phone was heavy.

She then sighs harshly. "Nova, we literally talked about this, you need to talk to him" she says. She was right, but I just don't know why my mind won't let me. "Look how about this, I'll talk to Noah myself" she says. "No. We are adults, not high schoolers. I am perfectly capable of handling Noah my damn self" I say. "Then why haven't you?".

That was a question that has yet to be answered.

As we continued to talk on the phone, she suddenly had to go after Zryan got out of the shower. Which is code for: I'm going to fuck my boyfriend.

As I laid on my bed, all these thoughts and memories kept going through my head. The divorce was heavy on me, and I know it was heavy on Noah too. But a divorce is a divorce. We must accept it for what it is. I had already put in my mind we aren't together, it's just my heart I need to convince.

I sat in my office while my ex from 7 years ago stands Infront of me. "So, what bring you here?" I ask. Raya deeply sighs as she speaks. "I was just around town and thought I may come and see you" she says.

"We haven't spoken in 7 years." I say firmly. She looks down as she sighs. "Okay look, I heard about you and your divorce with...what's her name? Ria? Sora?". "it's Nova, and we are separated" I say. "Come on Noah, separation is practically a divorce" she says.

"Look what do you want?" I say passive aggressively. "I just wanted to check on you, see how you were doing". "You haven't 'checked on me for 7 years. and how did you even find out where I lived?" I ask. "I have friends around here, you know?".

I sigh deeply, this girl hasn't changed one bit. She was still stubborn as hell, and I used to like that.

"You know". She proceeds to get up from her chair and come around my desk. "I haven't been dating around much, and sometimes I just miss it".

"if this is you asking if we can see each other again then no." I say firmly. "oh no, I mean maybe we can...take that frustration out". Raya has always been able to get a rise out of me when we dated. But I haven't seen her in years, so it couldn't work now. "Your so much more handsome since the last time I saw you" she says as she starts to caress my shoulders. "I grown into a man" I say. "oh most definitely".

This felt wrong, all too wrong. I still loved Nova and she was on my mind all the time. I can't let someone from this long ago be able to get a rise out of me.

But suddenly my whole mindset starts to shift. Nova was the one that caused this entire divorice. If she didn't, we would still be together. I looked at Raya, who looked at me with so much lust in her eyes, waiting for me to break.

"what do you want Raya?" I say. "I want to see if you can still fuck me as good as you did back then".

You know what, fuck it.