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Comforting Taylor

TW: body shaming, wrong body image

Taylor:

"Happy birthday!" I said and hugged Selena tightly. "Thanks bestie." Selena said. "I got you something." I handed my best friend a little gift box, which had a pink ribbon on top. "Thank you much, Tay!" Selena opened the box and took out the golden necklace I had bought for her. It was a little heart necklace and I had been wanting to give it to Selena, since I had seen it in the store. "Oh my god, this is so gorgeous." Selena said with a big smile on her face. "I absolutely love it. Thank you, Tay. Can you help me putting it on?". "Of course." I grabbed the necklace and put it around my best friend's neck. "Gorgeous." I commented.

"Thanks. I'm sorry, Tay, but I have to welcome the other guests! See you later." Selena apologized and walked away. She had decided to celebrate her 32nd birthday with a lot of people and of course I was invited. I made my way to the living room, where most guests were either sitting on the huge table Selena had set or on the couch. Some others were standing, talking to other guests and celebrities.

I was looking through the room, trying to find someone I could talk to. My eyes caught a man, who was bending over the table, talking to someone. Wait, was that..no. No way he had been invited to my best friend's birthday. The man was done talking, so he turned around, his eyes meeting mine. It was him. My ex boyfriend Joe. I sank my eyes swiftly, not able to look into his cold blue eyes. He shouldn't be here.

I knew he saw me too. We hadn't talked in a year. After I broke up with him, because he had been cheating on me for too many times, we had lost contact completely. It was for the better, because I couldn't have dealt with his coldness any longer. That didn't mean I was over it though.

I nervously played with end of my sleeves, tugging them over my hands. At this moment I regretted wearing this tight black long sleeve, paired with my blue denim shorts. Maybe something more oversized would've been better.

Joe was turning to a short blonde girl, whispering something in her ear. The gorgeous woman looked at me, targeting me with her blue eyes. Then she grabbed my ex's hand and they came over to me. "Hey." Joe said, as if it was casual. "Um..hi?" I said, shyly looking down. Joe's presence always made me feel small, especially since he had beaten me up for once. I was still traumatized by that.

"This is Emma, my new girlfriend." Joe introduced me to the short blonde. "Hi Emma?" I said, really confused. "Hi. You must be Taylor? Well, Joe had told me his ex wasn't the prettiest." she laughed, throwing her hair back with her hand. "What?" I asked, not believing my ears. "And she was even skinnier when we were dating. Did you gain weight, Taylor?" Joe asked, knowing how much that question would hurt me. The worst thing was he was right. I had gained weight.

Joe knew that my body was my biggest insecurity. He never wanted me to get fatter, so I had stopped eating. For him I had never been perfect enough, never skinny enough and never pretty enough. Emma was exactly what he had been wanting me to be all the time.

After our breakup my eating got better again. I started dating Travis, who loved me from the bottom of his heart, no matter what scales said. Right now I wished he could've been here with me. Joe and Emma were making me feel very uncomfortable and I really wanted to leave.

"Yeah I did, Joe. My body is finally healthy again and I'm proud of that." I said, not even believing myself. Joe laughed, wrapping his arms around Emma's shoulders. "Oh Taylor, delusional as always. I'm so glad I have Emma now. I don't know why people say you're gorgeous, Taylor. Because you aren't. They probably feel bad for you. You're just an ugly slut. I bet that football player is only dating you for the money. There's no way he's into your body type." Joe degraded me.

His stone face didn't change. Everything about him was emotionless. Tears started forming in my eyes. Joe's words hurt me, because they were true. I would never be as pretty as girls like Emma and we all knew that. My nails dug into the skin of my forearm. Don't cry, Taylor.

Emma and Joe finally left me alone, but I didn't feel like partying at all anymore. I had told Selena I wasn't feeling well and drove home. While I was driving, I thought about everything Joe and Emma had said to me. Fat. Ugly. Slut. Travis was only dating me for my money. I knew the last sentence wasn't true. Travis was the most loyal person I knew and he loved me with all his heart. But maybe deep down he also wished I was skinnier.

Tears were streaming down my face, I was sobbing heavily. It was raining outside, but I loved it. The rain drops on my front window exactly mirrored my emotions and comforted me in a weird way. When I finally arrived at home, I unlocked the door and stepped in.

My body was shaking, soaking wet from the rain. I took my leather jacket off and just let it fall to the ground. "Hey baby girl, I-" Travis entered the room, his words stopping as he saw me. "Oh, Taylor, are you ok?" my boyfriend asked and picked my jacket up, before wrapping his strong arms around my body.

Instead of giving him a response, I buried my face in his shoulder and started sobbing again. Travis rubbed my back, comforting me. "It's ok, baby girl, I'm here." Travis whispered. "Let's go to bed, hm?" he asked me, tugging a but of my hair behind my ear. I just nodded, so Travis lifted me up in bridal style and carried me to our bedroom.

In the bedroom, my boyfriend undressed me completely. It wasn't undressing in a sexual way, just helping me out of my wet clothes. When I was completely naked, still shaking, Travis pulled one of his oversized t-shirts over my head. We both crawled into our bed, snuggling up next to each other. Travis held me tight, not wanting to let go of me.

"Do you wanna talk about it, baby girl?" Travis asked, as he ran his fingers over my hair. "Joe was there..and his new girlfriend." I told Travis. "Oh no, baby. Did they talk to you?". "Yeah..they thought it was necessary to tell me how fat I was and how unattractive it made me." I explained, tears forming again. "What? Joe was saying that? I'm gonna beat him up, Taylor." Travis said, very angry now.

"No..Travis, it's ok. Maybe he was right, I mean, honestly. Did I gain too much weight, Travis? Am I unattractive?" I asked Travis, directly staring into his green eyes. Travis' face changed from angry to worried.

"What are you talking about, baby? You are the most beautiful woman in this world, inside and out. Everything about you is perfect. Do you even know how much I love every single curve of your body? You aren't fat nor unattractive. I'm so proud of you for making it this far and you should be too. Every part of your body is perfect and I wouldn't want to change anything about it. Taylor, I love you. And not just Taylor Swift, I love you, Tay. Please never ever listen to people who make you feel bad or worthless. Joe is probably just upset, because no woman will ever replace you, Taylor. Some boys can't deal with losses. I'm so grateful I can call you my beautiful girlfriend and never ever forget that, Taylor." Travis said.

"I love you so much, Travis." was all I could say, because I had started crying again. This time it wasn't because of sadness though. Travis' words had touched my heart and I was so overwhelmed with how amazing he was. "I love you too, baby girl." Travis said and pulled me even tighter. After a while we both fell asleep, cuddled up next to each other.

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