Sometimes I get triggered, and sometimes I don't know how to handle it.
I'm working on myself, and trying to learn to love myself too.
Even through my struggles
I'm not used to someone truly caring for me
I often feel like a burden because I have a lot of trauma from being bullied growing up.
I apologize a lot because I know that some things I do for attention or validation aren't from the best place and I don't like that
I don't want to treat you like I have treated people in the past and in order for me to do that I have to start taking care of myself better
I appreciate you and I'm sorry because I don't ever want to use you
I'm trying to heal from a lot and I'm just now realizing that some things that I didn't know were still there are coming back.
So if I'm overly emotional or saying bad things about myself, unless it's a joke know that I am trying
