I love your big brown eyes and I love how your hand fits in mine, I love the way that you hold me close and don't wanna let go.
Or the way you rest you head on my shoulder when you're too tired.
I love the way that you smile and the way that you talk to me, I love how you smile when I'm in the room.
You tell me you love me with your eyes and with a big hug.
I love your bear hugs and I love the way that you rub your thumb on mine.
I love how you give me goosebumps or how you talk to me, and when you call me pretty.
I love our little walks down the road and how you always cheer me up when I'm not feeling good with flowers and choclalte.
I love how even tho I'm the most selfish person ever you still like being around me.
I love how you are the sweetest person I've ever met and treat me so well.
Sometimes I worry that I don't treat you well enough and that's when I spiraled into thinking that I wasn't good enough and now that I'm aware how I've been feeling.
I realize how Ive been treating my self and why I've been crying and I am good enough and you love me anyway doesn't matter if I wear make up or if I want to wear nice clothes or if I dye my hair red or if I dye my hair black. You love me anyway and I'm so thankful for it and I wish that I was better at words when you're right in front of me but I'm awful at words that come out of my mouth when I haven't marinated in my thiughts, I don't know how to tell you it for some reason and I'm hard on myself up to the point where I feel like I am no longer good enough because I'm just not perfect.
And I think that you love me and I think I love you too and it scares me because there's a part of me thats truly scared to be happy.
And maybe I have a fear of losing it, but I'm trying my hardest to be confident in myself and to be there for you because I know that you're going through a hard time because of that, I've gone through a hard time too. I love you and I miss you, I always miss you.
No one has ever made me feel the way that you do and I know none of this will make sense but I needed to let it out because I want to tell you that I love you I want to kiss you, I wanna hold you, I want to call you all the names in that book (all the good ones not the bad ones)
I wanna shower you in love and affection (I would love a forehead kiss)
You're the best boyfriend I could ever ask for and I don't know how I got so blessed because I thank God every day for you I love you 1000 times I love you and I will say it again until I have no breath
