Poetry

Thousand Thoughts

Thousand Thoughts
I can't sleep at night properly
Not because I watch social media
Or watch movies or series
But because I don't know how to stop my brain
It runs around the entire time
During the day during the night
I get tried of it
Tried of my thoughts
Tried of my brain telling me I'm a failure
Tried of thinking about ways to die
Tried of digging around my past
Tried of remembering all the good times
I wish I had an escape from them
"Just don't think about anything" they say
But it isn't very easy for me
I try to turn off my thoughts
And not think about anything
But I can't
"Listen to some music" they say
But I don't just listen to music, I understand it
"Close your eyes" they say
Darkness makes me calm but not sleepy
They ran out of advice
And I ran out of hope
I gave up now
I don't try to fall asleep anymore
I just accept it