So obvz this isn't the first time I've done this, but I've got more.... Imma do it in parts as my life continues.
Also, I ALWAYS interpret songs differently soo....
I won't link specific lyrics bcz the images are limited but I'll do brief explanations and rate how uncomfortable it was for me to type...
Id have more happy songs on here but I don't listen to much happy music
I don't remember every date, but I started this playlist on the 16th July. Most this shit is about my bf tbf... Well my insecurities because I feel bad for being me and therefore it's related because I feel like I'm not enough for him but anywayz
(I still haven't gotten over this morning.... If you're seeing this I still need confirmation as to where the relationship stands? I feel bad for not letting you go because I feel like thats what you wanted...)
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Vermilion and hysteria are both .... About the Atlantic ocean ig. Well vermilion was because of my erm attachment yippee
Millions was vibes not lyric
West coast smoker was just for 'Im a nervous wreck'
Band the doldrums was because BEST FRIENDSSSS EX FRIENDS TILL THE END ///BETTER OFF AS LOVERS///
Hysteria was most definitely Atlantic ocean 'I want it now, I want you nowwwwwww'
Trying to escape the inevitable was about my paranoia that my boyfriend is a pedo lmfao... I was scared of the relationship at first (for a while) and I chose that because of 'And I know I should run' which repeats loads to show anxiety. I also chose that song because of the 'tell me that you love me' because idk....sometimes you just need that, you know? (Rating on that song for uncomfortable to type is 7/10)
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NPBITC is just THE SONG .... YoU lOoK sO GoOd In BlUeueueuUeeE
All I wanted is because I thought I'd never be able to speak to them again and I'd read what they'd sent me but I was in a plane ride so I couldn't actually read it fully or respond so I was in 6 hours of suspense... It hurt (5/10)
My heart.... Gay.
Creep. This is a tough one.... I guess the whole song. It's a reoccurring one and is the most relatable of them all is say... 'Youre so fucking special, I wish I was special' i always loved the way the singer said 'fucking'... It's so full of emotion, emotional that I felt. 'but I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo' , 'What the hell am I doing here?'
And more recently... 'Whatever makes you happy.' (6/10)
Gin Joints... Gay song number two. 'i used to waste my time dreaming of being alive, now I only waste it dreaming of you' (SPECIFICALLY THE SECOND TIME BECAUSE IT FEELS MORE SPECIAL) 'Turn off the shyness', I love the way Patrick says 'OH THE WAYYYYYAYAYYAYY' and also 'Ive got headaches and bad luck but they couldn't touch you' hits even tho I don't necessarily relate to the ACTUAL meaning.. oh, and 'You only hold me up like this because you don't know who i really am' i used to get anxious that he'd leave me when he knew more about me.
Joyriding... ' I hate my weaknesses, they made me who I am'.. I've always felt bad for feeling bad because I feel like I'm dragging the relationship down.
