Love Or Lie....?

Part 20

[ Ignore my mistakes, I haven't recheck]

"I want to know you taehyung____I want to know the real you" after a brief silence you completed your sentence against his chest with the hope that he will open his heart in front of you and let you know his secrets.

Your hand went up as you gently pressed it against his chest while feeling his heartbeat.

"Taehyung.. please let me know you." You said with your head still against his chest.

"What do you want to know?" Finally he spoke, his voice was calm and soothing.
Pulling back you looked at his eyes.

"First tell me about my accident, when they attacked me they showed me a video of yours.." you paused to breathe as remembering the video gives you goosebumps.
"A video where you cut someones hand mercilessly. Why did you do that..? Why you had to be like that."
"I had my reasons, moon." He said
"What REASONS!!??" You tried to be calm but ended up raising your voice as you were impatient to know what reason brought out his beast side.

"Before I share my every single secret with you..tell me will you hate me after that?" You saw fear of losing you in his eyes. "I won't survive your hatred,moon" his eyes became moist.

Leaning in you pressed your lips with his as action speaks louder than words. You wanted to make him assure that you won't and his secrets are safe with you.
"Never..you are my whole world" your lips moved against his. You pulled back leaving a peck on his forehead.

"The guy whose hand I cut used to work for our company, I only accepted him because his brother requested me. Later I found out he was sexually assaulting the female workers. Taking legal action was a little hard because his brother is rich enough to let him stay behind the bars so.." he paused
"So what!!?"
"So I decided to punish him on my own.." he looked down expecting you to yell at him.

"Taehyung you just can't punish anyone like that...even if they are wrong it's a crime." You weren't sure how to take his words and react
"From where I belong everything is possible.." he sighed, it was a sigh of disappointment as if he wasn't also happy about what he was doing.

"And where do you belong!!??" You asked trying to keep yourself calm, you were determined to listen to the full story of his side and then judge him as your heart wasn't ready to accept your taehyung can do anything wrong.

"From the dark world, where killing someone isn't a big deal, where every wrong deed is allowed."
Nothing left your mouth except the word "why..?"

"This is what I'm..moon, this is my real identity." By his face you could say it took him enough courage to reveal him. Saying the truth is hard sometimes when it can risk your beautiful relationship still he chose to speak the truth as his moon wanted to know him.

You took some deep breaths and shut your eyes. You were not sure how to take all this.

"Moon.." he grasped your both hands in his and gently squeezed them.
"I know you are shocked and not understanding a single thing now but please don't get me wrong...I..I.." before he could finish his sentence you pulled him for a tight hug and buried your face in the crook of his neck.
"Just stay like this..."

Y/n's pov//
I pulled him for a hug as an immediate race started between my mind and heart. This moment he was doing both, driving me crazy and keeping me calm. I just wanted to keep quiet for some time.

"Moon...I never wanted to be like this." I was silently listening to him
"Please trust me I didn't choose this way for me."
"I trust you.." I felt his grip tightened around me as he exhaled in relief, his heartbeat relaxed in my assurance.
"now tell me what was the reason.. what made my sweet taehyung a beast." I inquired further

"It's.. it's my parents" pulling back, I looked up at his face.
"Your parents??" This is the first time he is mentioning his parents. We never talked about his parents.. I just realized I really don't know anything about him while he knows every page of my book except my lies.

"Moon.. my childhood wasn't like other kids it wasn't so beautiful it traumatized me, when I was a 7 years old little boy my mom left me for someone else. She lied to me..she said she loves me but she didn't. She never did, moon.." his voice was cracking indicating the pain inside his chest.

"My whole childhood I craved for love... moms lies changed it, snatched my happy warm side to cold and switched my heart with a rock." I reached for his face with my thumb I gently caressed his cheeks, his eyes were filled with tears which were showing pure hatred for his mother.
The reason behind this hate is lies...my heart dropped recalling I'm doing the same, my throat became dry making my lungs empty without air. My mind was giving me the hint of the consequences of my deeds. It's horrible, everything inside me was trembling in thought of getting hated by him.

"After mom I was stuck with dad, he was always cold as ice, dad was never there for me when I needed him. They ruined my whole childhood"
his expression was saying that his inside was burning with pain but he didn't let out a single drop of tear, he held them back as if he wanted to hide his vulnerable side from me.
Pov ends

"Do you know what once I was burning with fever but I had none to take care of, I was all alone by myself. When our house helper informed dad he said that 'just give him medicine and he'll be fine', he couldn't come back home..ig his work was more important than me. My whole childhood is filled with stories like this, every time I craved love I just received an absence." He gulped to wet his dry throat which was stopping him from speaking.

"Their absence made fun of me and rubbed it on my face that I'm not important for them, I'm just a burden." A heavy sigh escaped his lips
"Let out the tears taehyung, allow your heart to let all the pain go and make it light."
Leaning in you kissed his eyes, finally the tears were rolling down his cheeks.

"You don't deserve the pain, don't carry the past." You couldn't stop yourself from crying after hearing how much pain he was storing inside him.

You could relate to him as your childhood was also parent less and living with your uncle and aunty was not less than a hell.

"So because of your childhood trauma you choose to enter the dark world?"
"Nah..in my teenage dad forced me to take after his illegal business. And here I'm today..but trust me Moon after you came into my life I want to live a normal life as a normal person."

"Then lead a normal life taehyung, bury your past and let's do a fresh start. I really wish us to live a happy life taehyung" your eyes were locked with his
"Your wish is command for me. I'll fulfill your wish, give me a little time to get myself out of this mess." He smiled.

"Btw taehyung if someday you find out I lied to you, how will you react? Will you hate me too?" You asked him letting you intrusive thoughts win
"Hate??? No I won't hate you. I will either kill you for deceiving or kill myself for trusting you blindly. I hate lies and liar both" he said in a serious tone making your face drain color.

Seeing your pale face he burst out laughing
"Hey you're afraid? Don't worry nothing like this will happen because I trust my moon will never lie to me." Warping his arms around your neck he kissed your forehead then your pull face.

Y/n's pov
How can I tell you I already did? Everything was a lie from the very first, the person you're trusting blindly is a liar too.

My inside was feeling restless and in pain. What I have done...

My heart calmed down as soon as I was pulled in his embrace.
"Let's sleep now I'm tired" I nodded

He is all I need, I won't let my lies separate us.
Ends//

Precap- A nameless parcel for Y/n.