I sighed as I laid on the bed and watched Tascha and Julie dance around while packing. I want to dance too but I feel exhausted today. I pulled the sleeves of my oversized Texas hoodie down over my hands out of pure habit as I went to get there attention. I pressed pause on the music "will you guys take a break for a minute I feel left out" I pouted. Julie sat down on one side and Tascha on the other. Tascha took my legs and started to massage them "sorry Dems didn't mean to make you feel that way". Julie nodded "yeah we get carried away when we dance" I smiled "I just wish I didn't feel so exhausted" they both nodded. I looked at Julie "when are you and James coming out to Texas are you gonna wait till this baby is born?" She smiled "yeah we wanna stay after she or he is born. I gotta spoil my little niece or nephew" I laughed and smiled "yes you sure do and so does Marissa, Dal, and Mad! I can not wait to see them!" Tascha smiled "I miss momma D!" I giggled "I'm sure she misses you too she practically loves you more than me!" Tascha giggled "no way but she does love me and I love her, seriously though I love all of my wonderful family and am so happy to be extending it!" I nodded "me too hey Julie you and James thinking bout babies yet?" I joked making her blush "um uh not really". I laughed "I was just kidding but seriously when is he gonna pop the big question I can tell he's ready too!" She blushed more "I honestly don't know but as scary as it is I can't wait!" We all gossiped about random stuff till my stomach growling interrupted "apparently we are hungry" I laughed. Tascha smiled and rubbed my baby bump "what are my favorite people hungry for?" I thought about it "Mmm some Arby's roast beef sounds so good but so does a grilled cheese sand which". Tascha giggled "okay well how bout we just ask for an extra cheddar roast beef sand which?" I nodded "Mmm that sounds so good oh oh and can we share curly fries and mozzarella sticks?" she nodded "sure thing babe." I smiled "Ooo Jul would you split an order of jalapeño poppers since my wifey can't handle the heat?" she laughed "sure I love those!" Tascha wrote down all of what we wanted then pecked my lips and left to go get all our food and Julie staid well to watch me really. I've been getting really sick randomly and getting really weak and sick all alone in this big house is dangerous so really anytime Tascha runs to get me stuff Julie comes over unless its two am then Tascha gets a bowel and water and tells me not to leave the bed. I got so sick for a week straight my doctors were not so sure about allowing me to fly home thank god it's slowly easing up. What's not easing up is how much this baby moves I feel it all the time stretching kicking just moving Tascha says it's cause the baby likes to dance like its mommy. Oh and Tascha is gonna be momma and I'm gonna be mommy ugh Im just so excited I just want our precious angel here already!
Julie crawled up to the head of the bed and laid down next to me "Demi what's it like to be married to her?" I felt myself automatically smile "amazing!" I looked at her and could tell thoughts were rolling "are you scared about taking that step with James?" She looked away "I have never been the committed type I always run away or push people out of my life when they get too close Nat and I have had some struggles just as friends I've pushed her away so hard before but she is different I mean she's like my best friend soul mate I trust her with anything and everything and when I push her away she always pulls me back in. James it is so new to me to feel like I don't want to push him away but feel myself doing it anyways. I don't know just confused I guess". I hugged her closer to me "you are the type to be independent and strong willed I see a lot of myself in you I wanted just fun for the longest time and that's what I did. when I stopped doing that, I was my rock I didn't want anyone else to be my rock or to let anyone in for the longest time. It is almost like you think you won't look as strong if you show you love someone or have feelings and emotions but I let love in and it feels great you are strong and amazing and still independent but mad in love and want to share everything with someone it's magical and I think you are there you are just scared about looking like you are weak or something when that is not possible you are one of the strongest women I know nothing changes that you could cry and breakdown and all I'd see is a warrior." She hugged me "god Demi you have no idea what that means to me". I smiled "you have no idea what you mean to me one you are a lovatic and I love you like the family you are through that. Then you are this incredible friend to not only the woman I love but to me as well you are truly a part of my family." She looked at me "god you are just too amazing Demi!" I laughed "I try darling" I flipped my hair to one side making her laugh. She has a very contagious smile because it literally lights up her whole face. I smiled back till I felt a strong kick ripple through my body "Ooo okay god" Julie looked at me concerned "you okay?" I nodded "just surprised by that kick goodness". She smiled and I took her hand and held it over the part of my belly that was being kicked "goodness is right, really kicking today". I nodded "for real!"
