I looked at the messy kitchen and sighed feeling my emotions over come me. I sank down to the floor and held my head in my hands. Why cant I get this right? Tascha is gonna be home any minute and instead of her favorite dinner she is gonna come home to a messy kitchen and two burnt attempts at her favorite food. I cant believe this, I am a horrible wife "Demi oh my god why are you crying why are you on the floor? Are you okay?" I looked up at her I didn't even realize that I had been crying. Tascha had me off the floor and on her lap on the coach in a matter of seconds. I gripped her shirt and sobbed as I choked out "Im so sorry baby Im sorry". Tascha interrupted my apology by crashing her lips to mine. I felt everything stop and just got lost in the feeling of her lips. I don't know how she can make me feel the way she loves me with just her lips in a sweet kiss, but I love it. She pulled away and wiped my tears "baby talk to me". I sighed and looked in her eyes "I am so sorry for this morning baby I feel like the worst wife ever. I hate what all these hormones and being off my meds is doing to me. I was such a bitch and you didn't do anything wrong. I was gonna make your favorite for dinner to apologize, but failed twice and now you had to come home to a messy kitchen and a sobbing mess of a wife." She looked at me and smiled sweetly "Demi you are so cute I love you and this kind of stuff happens life isn't picture perfect all the time thank god too cuz some of my favorite moments are the messiest. Besides all this is normal for the third month." I crashed my lips to hers desperately. I don't know how I got so blessed to have this understanding amazing woman as mine. I felt my need to have her grow as she pulled away making me bite her bottom lip trying to keep her. She sighed as she continued to pull away instead of leaning back in. I pouted as she brushed my messy hair away from my face "baby you need to eat". I rolled my eyes "I was trying but you pulled away". She giggled and kissed my cheek "Demi real food!" She went to stand up but I pushed her down and bit my lip "but you are my favorite!" She sighed "Dems why are you making this so hard?" I turned away as I fought to keep from crying she doesn't want me. I fought Tascha's hands as she tried to turn my face to hers. She sat up and held me tight to her "baby please don't cry I love you and I really want you right now god I want you so bad the way you bite your lip, you know that's my job, but I need you to take care of you and our baby let me feed you real food first." I slowly turned to look her in the eyes and snuggled my face into her neck "I am sorry I automatically think you don't want me I hate this I hate my stupid mind!" Tascha ran her hand down my back "no baby your mind is beautiful just like all of you. Seriously your mind is responsible for amazing music and thoughts that inspire others and saves lives. Plus your dirty side is hiding in that there mind and I love it!" I finally gave into her smiling away at her being so sweet to me. I stood up and put out my hand to help her up. She got up then took my hand making me laugh at her stubborn ways. We walked into the kitchen and I sighed. Tascha turned me to look at her "baby how about you get some music going so I can clean up and make you some food." I wanted to apologize and tell her I was cleaning it up but its so hard to fight with her cuz she always uses the its best for the baby card and I cant fight that! She pecked my lips before turning away to clean. I went through my phone and turned it on to the blue tooth through the house. Instantly Tascha started singing along to Kelly Clarksons new single Heartbeat song. She started to do all the hard cleaning. I walked over to the sink and began washing dishes. I couldn't help my eyes from trailing to Tascha's swaying hips as she danced to the music. I bit my lip and watched helplessly as the picture in front of me filled my mind. Man my hormones are making it impossible to even look at her without getting all hot and bothered. I watched as her little ass moved to the beat making me want to be right up against it. I tore myself from my gaze as she turned and that's when I realized I was about to overfill the sink "oh shit!" I quickly turned off the water and sighed Tascha giggled "babe how bout you go lay down on the couch while I pile everything out of the way make you food and clean up later?" I sighed "I'm sorry ugh you are so distracting!" She laughed and slapped my ass "so are you sexy." I smiled and got out of her way so she could do her thing. She is so organized and clean and fast it must be from when she worked at her Grandmas diner. I watched her from the love seat and smiled as I thought about how well she was gonna take care of our baby. Tascha said something but I was too lost at the image of her holding our baby to hear what she said "what babe?" She looked at me "I said do you want me to bring the food over there and we can cuddle and watch tv or what would you like?" I smiled and patted the couch "right here is good". She nodded and grabbed two plates and set them down then went back to get us waters. I smiled and pecked her cheek as she sat next to me "thanks baby it smell so good!" She winked "I know its awesome and so am I", I let out a giggle as she flung her hair back. She turned on the tv and went straight to the ID channel "babe why do you always do that?" She looked at me confused "do what?" I rolled my eyes "you always go straight to my favorite channel instead of checking yours or even asking what I want to watch!" She shrugged her shoulders "I didn't realize, I mean I just like to make you happy this channel makes you happy which is my favorite." I looked at her cute face "ugh I almost can't stand how sweet you are to me!" She laughed and kissed my cheek "its not being sweet I just love you". I cuddled into her side and ate the rest of my yummy dinner. Tascha took my plate and left me on the couch while she finished cleaning up my mess. I closed my eyes and felt my body relax into the couch.
