The Badboy And The Nerd | ATEEZ

Chapter 4 : Our Secret

San silently nods at Seonghwa"s words, while he looked into his dark brown eyes there shone brightly in the sun's rays. San took another deep breath as he placed his hands above Seonghwa's as he holds his cheeks in his palms.

A soft smile appeared upon San's lips as he freed himself from Seonghwa's grip and embraced him by wrapping his arms around his neck, holding him tight. Without hesitation, Seonghwa too wrapped his strong arms around San's slender body and holds him close.

San buried his face in the crook of Seonghwa's neck, inhaling his sweet scent. He closed his eyes as the feeling of being loved differently had filled him, he were no longer only loved by his family, but also by the school's Badboy, whom had never showed any kind of emotional feelings towards anyone, he had always been avoiding people who tried to get close to him, but with San, it was different.

"I promise that I will protect you at all cost, I won't let anyone hurt you.. your innocent and precious soul mustn't get broken, only I can have you, you are mine and mine alone.." Seonghwa spoke in an dominant and protective voice as he let his hand wander down San's back, caressing him, making him feel comfortable and calm.
San nods, giving in to Seonghwa and let him be the alpha of the pack.

After the two of them said their final goodbyes and went in the opposite directions, San were already feeling empty and sad as he were no longer able to be in the arms of the one whom had just confessed to him. His feelings were unexpected, yet sincere.

As he entered his house, he were met by his mother there looked at him with a worried gaze, "where have you been you silly boy? I had been texting you, but you never answered once.. I was so worried and nervous, please, don't do this again!" She spoke in an stern tone, but San knew that she never meant her words to be this harsh and simply just nods, "I'm sorry mom, I promise that I will text you next time." She took a relieved breath and nods as well.

"Where have you been?" She asked curiously, San were hesitant as he doesn't know how to answer her properly, he didn't wanted to reveal his relationship with Seonghwa as he knew that his family or at least his father would be against it and won't be supportive, "uhm, I was.. meeting one of my.. friends?"
His mother were tilting her head, but soon a smile appeared upon her lips as she spoke, "I'm so happy to hear that darling.." it were the first time that she had ever heard San made any friends, of course she doesn't know the truth behind San's lame lie, but he preferred it to stay that way.

Seonghwa were laying all by himself on his bed, he rested his head against his palms while he just looked up at the ceiling above him. He had never expected his feelings to be on an boy, an outsider and the nerd of the school, but he were just unable to reject his feelings anymore, he can't avoid the truth that he had fallen so badly for San.

Many girls, juniors and seniors had approached him many times, but he rejected them all one by one. He were never feeling any chemistry between him and the girls there constantly kept confessing to him and ask him out, but with San, it were an total different story..

San were as innocent as a child and pure as the new fallen snow, he were just different and that had to be why Seonghwa had gotten those feelings for him, feelings that he were unable to take control of anymore.

"What have you done to me?" He muttered in his own small monologue as he felt his heart began to beat faster by the thought of the boy that he had catch feelings for. He had just been enchanted by his personality and his gentle and soft persona.

As the days slowly passed, the two of them kept hiding their relationship secret from everyone around them. No one gets to know about how their friendship had grown into a sweet and warm relationship. Seonghwa knew that San were afraid that the students might find out and Seonghwa's gang members there all were looking sternly at San and the rest of all the students.

Seonghwa had from the beginning promised San that he would take him under his wing and protect him from any pain there might follow him.

The last day of the cherry blossoms blooming soon approached, the two boys were walking side by side along with the small path there leaded down to the public park. They were both letting their fingers get entangled with each other, feeling the warmth from their palms.

A soft smile appeared upon Seonghwa's lips as he peeked over at San who were enjoying the view of the fallen petals there slowly floated with the gentle breeze. The sadness of the ending on the beautiful trees' blooming were hard, but the beauty of the pink petals there fell like an soft rain, had made the small path glowing, like an bright, pink carpet there covered the ground beneath them.

San peeked up at Seonghwa as he felt his gaze on him, "is something wrong?" He silently asked as he made eye contact with him. Seonghwa chuckled and simply shook his head, "the only thing that might be bothering me, is how cute and beautiful my little boyfriend can be? Cuz it's unbelievable how much angelic you can look.." San felt how his cheeks slowly began to burn even hotter and he shook his head while he covered his blushing face with his hand.

"Don't say things like that, you make me feel embarrassed." He said while he kept holding his hand up to cover his crimson face. Seonghwa lets out another chuckle and gently grabbed onto his hand and removed it from his face and let his finger move San's head aside, to get his attention and made their eyes meet once again, "don't be, cuz you won't be able to run away from the truth." San gulped as he looked into his eyes through the glasses. Seonghwa slightly slide the glasses up against his nose and let his fingers lightly brush over his hot cheeks, "cutie.." he simply added.

A faint smile crept upon San's lips at his comment, "... handsome." He muttered lowly. Seonghwa lets out another soft chuckle before he began walking once again.

Their time together didn't lasted long when soon they had to part their ways. The two of them stood in front of each other once again. The tension around them grew heavy and passionate as they both were unable to get their eyes off of each other.

Seonghwa knew that San were still nervous and he decided to take everything slow, but he began to open up for him more and more and letting him enter his heart.
San went over and wrapped his arms around his neck, holding him tightly as he whispered, "I do not know how all this had happened, but.. I feel like I'm unable to reject my feelings and heart anymore, I can no longer live an day without you, I.. I likes you, I likes you a lot!" He suddenly confessed while he buried his face in Seonghwa's neck.

Happiness filled Seonghwa's body and mind as the words that San spoke were so loving and most of all... sincere!
"I do not like you San, not anymore.. I love you." The last three words were spoken in an low whisper as he leaned closer to his ear.

Shivers ran down his spine as the feeling of his hot breath lightly hitting against his soft skin had made him feel a thousand butterflies roaming wildly around deep down in his stomach. San slowly broke the hug, just to look up at the boy who had claimed him as his 'boyfriend'.

Seonghwa let his fingertips slightly caress San's soft cheek, before he slide his index finger underneath his chin and lifted up his head to get a better look at every inch of his face.
"You are mine.. and mine all alone, do you understand?" Seonghwa spoke in an soft, yet stern tone, making San gulp hard. He silently nods as he looked into his eyes without blinking even once.

A smile appeared on Seonghwa's lips as he leaned in and let his lips softly touch San's. Feeling the warmth and sweetness of his lips, made him need more of him, but he knew that the innocent soul that San is carrying is unable to let him move fast forward.

"See you soon.." Seonghwa said as he caressed San's crimson red cheek for the last time before he walked away, leaving San all by himself. He took a deep breath, feeling how lightly and warm he were feeling.
He were soon about to turn around to leave, but got stopped by an well known voice there spoke,

"so the little nerd had now become an big gaylord?"