THE SILENCE SAM LEFT

#6 Joshua: Entwined hearts

As we returned from the beach, I went back to my room still having many questions about why Sam didn't ask for forever. Why did he say he can't promise forever? Does he know me from my past? Questions and confusions clouded my mind.

The uncertainty lingered, but I felt happy, light, and free after confessing my feelings to Sam. Realizing my feelings for him brought me joy.

"I can finally free Jae from my one-sided love," I thought. "Now we can be best friends without me having to bother about his relationships." But I still didn't know how to confront him. Jae would always be my special one, always my safe haven, my soulmate – not in a romantic sense, but in the deepest, most profound way.

As various thoughts clouded my mind, I began to feel overwhelmed. I decided to seek solace in Sam's arms. I opened his door without knocking, thinking he was asleep. But what I saw shocked me – he was writing something in a journal or diary. He flinched, closing it quickly without giving me a glance.

"Josh, what's wrong?" he asked, concern etched on his face.

"I couldn't sleep, Sam. Can I please sleep with you?" I asked hesitantly.

Sam's expression softened. He lifted me into his arms my legs around his waist he take me to his bed, his touch igniting sparks within me.

He looks into my eyes kissing me so deeply.
"Josh, can... can I please have you?" Sam's voice trembled.

"You want to have sex with me?" I asked, my face flushing.

Sam's ears reddened, and he nodded. "Yes, Josh, please."

I kissed him, nodding in agreement. With Sam, I felt safe, willing to surrender my fears and insecurities.

As we explored each other's bodies, our passion ignited. Sam's gentle touch, his whispered words, and his loving caresses dispelled my doubts.

He kisses every part of my body making me want more he nibbles on my ear sending tingles of pleasure to my entire body. He kisses my eyes,nosetip,cheeks my jawline and every other part of my face.

He sucks on my Adam Apple. I cannot help myself from moaning into his touch and the sensation of his lips and tongue.

"Mmhm....Sam... please hurry" I said voice trembling with desperation and lust.

"Wait, baby, let me taste you first, let me worship your body first," Sam pleaded.

His lips trailed down my neck, sending shivers through me. "Ahh... Sam, please hurry."

"Josh, you're so beautiful, so perfect," Sam whispered.

Sam's fingers intertwined with mine, our hands clasped together.

"I love you, Josh," Sam whispered.

"I love you too, Sam," I replied.

He kisses the tip of my shaft before taking the whole thing in his mouth sucking it deeper and harder.

"A-aah...Sam I'll come" I said voice wavering from immense pleasure.

He licks down my hole licking the entrance, putting his tongue sucking on it hard showing me stars of pleasure.

"Sa-m... please.." I plead my breathing heavy.

"Wait...babyy..let me loosen it first" he Said eyes filled with pleasure.

He put one finger stretching my hole than a second and third until it's ready to take his thing.

He kisses me slowly putting his thing in. It's huge that makes me scared for a moment but I want him. I want him inside me.

"Aa-hh" I moaned feeling a bit of pain mixed with pleasure. "Baby... does it hurt?... please tell me if it's hurts" he said concern and pleasure clear on his face.

"It doesn't hurt Sam.... please". He started thrusting slowly giving me immense pleasure showing me a different world but I want him to go hard.

"Sam.. harder.... please" I said voice cracking with pleasure.

Our lovemaking was a symphony of pleasure and emotion. With each thrust, I felt our connection deepen.

"Sam... mhhm... please," I moaned.

"Josh, I'm yours," Sam whispered.

"Yours?" I repeated.

"Forever yours," Sam replied.

Afterward, Sam cradled me in his arms, his breathing lulling me to sleep.

The next morning, I woke to find Sam watching me, his eyes filled with adoration.

"Good morning, baby," he whispered.

Our breakfast was filled with laughter and tender moments.

After breakfast, I couldn't find Jae anywhere. His text message seemed cryptic: "Hey, I won't be around today. Got some work to attend to. See you tonight." I worried about his whereabouts.

As we prepared for our date, I couldn't shake off concerns about Jae's absence.

Sam's reassuring presence dispelled my doubts, and our date was a dream come true. We strolled hand-in-hand, sharing stories and laughter.

"You're looking so beautiful, baby," Sam said, kissing me.

"You too, Sam," I replied, smiling.

The date went perfectly – giggles, talks, sweet moments, and kisses. I loved every moment with Sam.

"I love you, Sam," I confessed.

Sam's face fell, and sadness clouded his eyes. "I'm sorry, Josh... I am sorry, baby."

Tears streamed down my face as Sam's words hung in the air, heavy with unspoken meaning.

"Why can't we be together....forever, Sam?" I asked.

Sam's eyes dropped, his voice barely audible. "It's complicated, Josh."

"Complicated?" I repeated.

Sam's silence was deafening.

As we stood there, the world around us melted away, leaving only the two of us, suspended in a sea of unknowns.

We held each other tightly, everything falling silent. The only sound was our ragged breathing.

"Why, Sam?" I whispered.

Sam's grip tightened, but he remained silent.

And in that moment, I knew our happiness was fragile, threatened by secrets and uncertainties.

The darkness closed in, and I wondered: What secrets was Sam hiding?

As the silence stretched, I felt my heart shattering into a million pieces.

"Why, Sam?" I whispered again.

But Sam's only response was his crushing embrace.