Diary Of An Unstable Teen

the story about my dad

This is the story about my dad and what happened

My mum and my dad split up before I was born and sometimes I think it was my fault they broke up

I know that sounds silly but they were happy when my sister was there

I'll tell you about my mum and my sister in a separate chapter

Anyways, we still saw my dad but it became less and less each year

I had a step mum and three brothers too (step brothers)

I had a whole other life

Sometimes my dad would get into fights with my step mum 

And would take me and my sister

He always claimed us as only his

While my step mum claimed my step brothers as only hers

Yes, that was true but it still hurt like I'm still a child in your family

My dad, he wasn't the best dad

He would forget to buy us essentials like clothes and toothbrushes

Basically, he forgot to cater to his other family (my side)

That's where my mum would step in

She would buy us the things we needed because he wouldn't

He wouldn't pay for anything

Not even child support which he is legally supposed to pay for

He would be asleep to about lunch time and would forget all about us

If I didn't have my step mum I probably would've gone to bed hungry

Some nights he drank too much and he would get really angry

And would yell at me and my siblings

I used to get really scared and then my sister became my protector

Maybe she felt obligated as the older sister

But she started putting herself in the parent role

She started telling my dad that it wasn't okay what he was doing

Then he would either slam the door really hard and lock himself in the bedroom

Or he'll escape his problems and drive somewhere and not come back until the next day/late night

He works as a courier driver so when he would pick us up from school on a Friday so we could stay with him for the weekend he is often late, leaving us waiting at the office for him to arrive

It got annoying and I mostly needed a book to keep myself distracted

That hobby has still stuck around until now

and I guess I've gotten into writing too, though I can't seem to finish a book and that frustrates the hell out of me

maybe I'm not worth it after all..