strawberry shortcake

66. death kiss

This chapter is long as hell and I was thinking about separating it into two, but nah, you deserve a little treat haha

TW: blood, abuse, rape, death, gore (?)
please don't read those parts if you're not comfortable with it, your health is more important <3
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Minho subtly wiped away the tears that were running down his cheeks with the back of his hand as he was gently scrubing dried blood off his brother's weak body. Yongbok's been soaking in the bath for over twenty minutes, the water being dulled to a red color that neither of them liked while zoning in and out of consciousness. He's been on a lot of pills that they forced him to take, having no idea what they were, however he did not like any of them since they only made him drowsy.

Neither of them had any idea of how long they've really been there, having lost count since most of the first days -or was it weeks?- they spent in the basement. Only a few days ago the man came to drag them into a small room with it's own bathroom where he had them chained again and watched twenty four seven by at least two buff men.

Not that they could escape anyways, they were chained and abused so bad neither of them had the strenght to even stand up, let alone get through the security.

Yongbok hissed softly, when Minho went over one of his cuts on his upper arm, that looked especially bad, the older immedietly apologizing for causing him even more pain.

"Hyung you should wash up too." he said, his voice coming out quiet as it was strained from the constant crying and pleading. "It's alright Bokkie, just try to relax so it doesn't hurt as bad." The older sniffled, wiping his tears once again to not let his brother see him cry.

He hardly ever cried, yet when he saw the tow their situation had on his brother since he was going through worse than he was, he couldn't help it.

"Hyunjin won't like me anymore when I tell him what I did with them..." Minho's heart broke at his words. The sadness and guilt coming from them cut deep, and he wanted nothing more than to be able to take all his pain away.

"It's not what you did with them, but what they did with you, none of this is your fault Bokkie. Hyunjin is no fool, he wouldn't stop liking you simply for this reason."

Felix sniffled, closing his eyes to stop his tears from falling, but he couldn't help it. His whole body was in pain yet it felt so dull at the same time from the pills they gave him. He felt like he wasn't even present in his own body, yet it felt too real. Everything was wrong.

"I feel so dirty, Minho. So disgusting for doing those things." He let out in a broken whisper as he softly sniffled, lifting his shaky hands to cover his face and hide himself from the world.

"Please don't. Yongbok none of this is your fault. You don't do those things because you want to. Those horrible people are forcing you into it. None of this is your doing." He himself could hardly keep his tears in as he tried to get the twisted view of his little brother out his pretty head. Yongbok didn't deseved this. None of it. He still couldn't grasp just why he himself through beatings and starvation why his brother had to be assaulted every day by many men. If he could, he would rather take all the pain himself than put Yongbok through it.

"But I am letting them."

"You have no other choice."

"Minho, please..." Felix sobbed, shaking his head to stop the older from talking further. The guilt was already embedded into his mind and there was no way of convincing him otherwise.

"They will come for us soon, you will be with Hyunjin again and you'll be happy. I promise, Yongbok, you will be happy again." He attemted to smile at him hopefully, but it came out more as a twisted grin since he didn't have it in him to smile in a situation as horrible as theirs.