strawberry shortcake

33. confessions

This chapter is mainly about Woosan, I hope you'll enjoy!!

also did not proof read, so please if you see some mistakes lmk <3

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"... I just knew that I was in love. It was the way he looked at me, talked to me, held me, smiled at me. He remembered little details about me that I didn't even know I did. He never gave up on me even though I've been giving him a hard time since the beginning, with my issues, but he still stayed." Wooyoung's eyes almost disappeared from the big smile on his lips. There was nothing that made him happier than talking about his lover.

The whole story captivated Minho and also Hyunjin, who joined them in the middle, so much, they held their breaths the whole time.

"Woa.." Minho breathed out at the cute ending a million questions swirling in his mind. Wooyoung looked so peaceful and happy talking about San. It almost made him wish someone would behave the same way for him.

Like a stab into his heart, he was once again reminded of his little brother. Felix would also always glow up whenever he got the chance to talk about things or people he loved, just like Wooyoung. They would get along so well.

"You want some?" Hyunjin whispered towards the older, tilting his bag of chips towards him and Minho only reached out to grab a few without answering. "Weren't you scared to go against your parents?" he asked Wooyoung instead, him smiling and shrugging.

"I was. I knew they won't accept me, but with San by my side I also knew I will be alright. No matter what their reaction might be." He also leaned in to get some of the chips and chuckled to himself. "Now, they did end up disowning me simply for being gay. But, I mean, how does it matter now? I have a whole new family with San by my side and the others as well."

As he talked he caught the way Hyunjin's eyes once every while slipped down on his arms that were uncovered, showing his scars. He was used to curious eyes, and unlike from some people didn't find Hyunjin's gaze uncomfortable. It felt like he only didn't know what to say, but couldn't let it slip either.

So he brought it up himself. "I have a history with self harm and suicidal thoughts, though I mostly slip into little space as I get anxious, it isn't always the case... but for that I am also grateful for San for sticking up with me. Being my caregiver and all." He again beamed with happiness, talking about his boyfriend that he cherished more than anything.

"What's little space..? If you don't mind me asking. Is it like a -uh- something sexual..? Like subspace?" Hyunjin hesitated to ask as it might be too invasive, but Wooyoung was willing to answer with no issue. Especially because he sensed, the two were just genuinely curious and didn't mean it in a condescending manner.

"It's not sexual for us, but I know it's sexual for some couples." He took his time to make a disgusted expression, before talking again.

"It's basically a state of mind I slip into when I'm comfortable, feel safe or on the other hand anxious and stressed. My behavior switches to a child like mind and manners. I call everyone cute nicknames, throw temper tantrums, cuddle, cry, ask questions about everything... you know like an eight or something year old." He explained as best as he could, the other two nodding along.

"And what is San's part in this?" Hyunjin asked again unsurely and Wooyoung giggled.

"He is my caregiver, he takes care of me, making sure I won't get hurt or do something stupid." He took a few chips again, awaiting another question that came very soon, this time from Minho. "How did that happen? I mean.. you just told him you're a little and he decided to take care of you?"