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49. embrace

I actually really like this one, hope you'll like it as well <3

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tysm for reading, it means a lot (it's not the end of the book haha I'm just grateful)
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It was one of those days for Jisung when he woke up feeling like a worthless piece of human waste.

He barely slept. It seemed as if without Minho by his side he became unable to function properly.

So when Minho came to him the day before, asking if him and Felix could sleepover in the room he used to stay when he first got there because it's been five years since their grandma passed so they wanted to spend some time together remembering her, he tried really hard to not let his discomfort be seen when he said yes. He knew how selfish it would be if he said no.

It was his internal problem after all, and he knew it would be rather unfair to forbid Minho from seeing his brother any longer and on the occasion like this one.

Especially after he moved in, they had been spending a lot of time together (and with Hyunjin).

Jisung still didn't meet him though.

He didn't feel ready.

The bed felt cold without Minho to wake up to and it made the feeling of loneliness in him thread deeper.

Again; he was stuck in a loop.

Feeling guilty for feeling lonely when he knew he could knock on the door of one of his friends and they would gladly spend some time with him.

But they were all busy and he hadn't came to them in so long, he felt like they would either not take him seriously now or be too worried.

If he cried a little in the shower while preparing for work nobody would've known.

He did have to put on a little bit of makeup later to make himself more presentable. With the deep bags under his eyes, pale skin and glossed over eyes he looked dead.

Maybe everything would've been better had he been dead.

Mentally slapping himself for letting his mind slip again, he took in a deep breath to not let the gathered tears in his eyes fall. He just did his makeup after all. Wouldn't want that half an hour work to go to waste just like that.

Another deep breath before he walked out of the bathroom and straight to his work table to retrieve the clothes he had prepared there the day before.

Slipping into his routine, his mind felt calmer when he didn't feel so lost.

He dressed up, grabbed his bag and phone from the charger before he pet Doongie for the last time and then hurried through the halls to his car.

He could work from home when he didn't have any meetings, but the past few weeks he preferred to drive an hour to clear up his head and work in the office he occasionally held meetings in.

On the way, there was also a drive thru where they made the best coffee.

Once he ordered, he drove a little further and stopped his car under a big tree where he would be a out of sight.

While drinking the coffee he could feel his mood dropping once again so he decided to distract himself with his phone that had been laying discarded in his bag the whole time.

He turned off the airplane mode and let it load for a few seconds, sighing at the amount of emails he had to read through and reply to.

But what caught his attention was the familiar name of his favorite person staring back at him.