Lost love

Un ninaivile!!

Kaveri sat outside her 'new house', staring at the moon, her mind churning with all the new information dumped on her. She finally knew who she was, who her parents were, what they looked like, what she meant to them. She loved her life in Kodaikanal, loved all of them, especially her Santhanam appa. He was her savior. But there had always been a small part of her that felt adrift. She had a blank slate for most of her life, not even knowing her name. Only unanswered questions existed in her world. But now, she knew she was someone precious to her parents, an only child. She was loved. She was wanted. Except they were dead. She had known it all along. But it stung anew knowing their names and faces. The people who, at some point, meant the world to her, were dead and gone, and she couldn't even recall a single memory of them.

She had long accepted that saradha Amma and Santhanam appa were her parents, that this was her family. Yet a small part of her wished she could also have her past with her. She wondered if she was being greedy. 'Edavadhu ezhandhadha innonnu amaiyum pola' she consoled herself. Maybe she lost people who loved her, but she still had people who cherished her as family, her Amma, paati, ganga akka,Yamuna, narmadha, and kumaran mama.

'But there are also people from the past who still love you' her traitorous mind whispered. She was supposed to have been married. She had been madly in love with someone. And that someone, somehow, still loved her, still loved who she had been, even after so much time. She couldn't wrap her head around the fact that she had been so loved that a person had pined for her for years. Though kalyani paati and thatha hadn't directly conveyed it, it was clear what they wished for. For her to once again be part of their family, to be their grandson's wife. They saw her as their grandson's salvation. She didn't know what to do about it.

"Vijay.." she whispered his name under her breath. Goose flesh rose on her skin and she stared at it in wonder. 'enna andha aalu pera sonnale ipdi silirkudhu.'

"Kaveri..." Ganga came and sat beside her breaking her train of thought, "apola irundhu unnetha theditu irken. Inga ennadi thaniya vandu ukkandruka?"

"Illaka. Chummatha? Ellarum enga?"

"Ellarum thoongiyachu. Veedellam set panni inniku bayangra tired la. Atha seekrame thoongitanga."

"Nee thoongalaya?"

"Illadi..unta peslamnutha vande. Inniku evlo periya vishayam nadandruku. Kandipa nee disturb airpa..atha peslamnu vanden."

"Pasu adi vangnatha akka? Aduku na en disturb aga poren? Santhosamla padanum.." kaveri tried to distract her.

"Ei..chumma nadikadha. Na edha solrenu unakkum theryum. En? Enkita un feelings share panna koodathunnu ninakriya?"

"Ayyo akka. Apdilam illa. Enakke na enna ninakrenu purila. Atha enna solradhunu theryala."

"Nee confused a irka puriyudu. Pesina konjam relax a irkum. Enna? Seri sollu...antha thatha paati romba nallavangala illa?"

"Aamaka. Enakkum thonichu. Erkanave pasu va edhithu namaku veedu koduthanga. Apram inniku veetuku vanda apo kooda namma kitellam evlo sagajama irundanga. Andha paati Vera avlo cute la?"

"Mmm...correct a patha...inneram nee avangaluku marumagala irundirkanum.."

Ganga looked at kaveri's face, which had suddenly paled.

"Ennadi? Takkunu silent aita? Na thappa onnum sollalye?"

"Illaka. Intha vishayam tha enakku enna panradunu purila. Avanga enkita pesnathila irundu avanga manasula enna irkunu puriyudhu...aana..?"

"Ennadi?"

"Illaka. Athellam epdi seri varum? Enakutha ipo avaru yaarune theriyadhe...aana..."

"Aana enna?"