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5th September 1919

Three months have passed since Cecilia's arrival, and with each day, our connection has deepened. What began as a serendipitous encounter in my kitchen has evolved into something undeniably profound. The sentiment within me, unspoken for too long, has now become irrefutable—I am wholeheartedly, unreservedly in love with Cecilia. As I reflect upon the days that have passed, it is clear that Cecilia has breathed new life into my world. Her playful attitude, filled with a zest for life, has illuminated the corners of my existence that had grown dim and stagnant. Her laughter, so infectious and carefree, has been a tonic for my sombre soul. With her, I've rediscovered the simple joys of living, the enchantment of nature, and the delight of shared moments.

One of our shared secrets is a tire swing that hangs from the willow tree in the front garden—a whimsical addition inspired by Cecilia's suggestion. Together, we've spent countless hours on that swing, a symbol of our bond and a place where time seems to stand still. I watch as Cecilia propels herself higher and higher, her laughter harmonizing with the melodies of the wind and the rustling leaves. In those moments, it feels as though the weight of the world has lifted, and I am free to embrace the enchantment of the present.

Our connection deepens with each passing day. From casual strolls through the town, hand in hand, to the more profound shared dreams and whispered confidences, we have woven a tapestry of love that defies the constraints of convention. The world seems brighter with Cecilia in it, and every day with her feels like a treasured gem in the necklace of my life. Yet, beneath the radiant exterior of our love story lurks a shadow of impending heartache. My family, unaware of the depths of my feelings for Cecilia, pressures me into an engagement with another woman, a duty-bound alliance meant to secure our family's honour and financial stability. The weight of this impending decision is a heavy burden, for it threatens to rupture the love that has blossomed between Cecilia and me.

I am torn between love and duty, caught in a tempestuous whirlwind of emotions that threatens to destroy the love I hold so dear. As the days stretch before us, I am tormented by the thought of causing Cecilia pain, yet I know I must reveal this harsh reality to her. My heart aches with the anticipation of the anguish I will inflict, and I can only hope that the love we share is resilient enough to withstand the trials that lie ahead. In the midst of this emotional turmoil, our moments together become all the more precious. The quaint town we explore, our shared laughter, the stolen kisses—each memory is etched in my heart as a testament to our love. Cecilia's laughter, like a balm for the soul, lifts my spirits, providing solace in the face of the impending storm.

But the secret I carry, the impending engagement, casts a long shadow over our love. Each day that passes intensifies the guilt that gnaws at my conscience. I long to unburden my soul and seek Cecilia's understanding, to confide in her the truth that threatens to tear us apart. Yet, the fear of causing her profound anguish paralyzes me, leaving me ensnared in a web of secrecy. The weight of my unspoken truth becomes increasingly unbearable, a relentless anchor threatening to pull me under.

As I stand on the precipice, torn between the love I cherish and the duty that seeks to divide us, my heart aches for a solution that will preserve our love. The days that stretch before us are obscured by uncertainty, but one unwavering truth persists—the love I hold for Cecilia, a love for which I am willing to fight, no matter the formidable challenges that lie ahead.

The morning sun streamed through the windows of the cottage, casting a warm and inviting glow on the room. Blake and I had decided to forgo our usual breakfast, a reflection of the unusual nature of our current circumstances. Blake had knocked on my bedroom door at seven am this morning, bearing a cup of steaming coffee as a comforting morning gesture. As I hurriedly dressed, combed my fingers through my hair, and donned a delicate, thin red summer dress adorned with small daisies meticulously embroidered onto the fabric.

I settled cross-legged and barefoot on the dining room table, surrounded by more journals. Some of the books only had a few pages written in them. Blake, lounged on the sofa with another entry. The weight of the moment, intensified by our shared silence, hung palpably in the air. I couldn't resist the temptation to steal a glimpse at Blake, basking in the morning light that accentuated his striking features. His dark hair gracefully fell across his forehead, and his concentrated expression betrayed the complexity of the situation we found ourselves in. My curiosity was undeniable, but I quickly averted my gaze, reminding myself that the situation was intricate enough .

As I returned my attention to the journal in my hand, the melancholy narrative of Blake's father and Cecilia unfolded before me. Each page unveiled a fragment of their story, rich in yearning, sacrifices, and a love that transcended the confines of time itself. A wave of sympathy washed over me, and a growing sense of concern gnawed at the edges of my conscience. I found myself sometimes re-reading previous entries whilst I waited for Blake to finish with the next we were reading these entries for a reason that reason being to get me home, but I found myself wanting but almost needing to know what was going to happen to Cecilia and Ernest next.

It weighed heavily on me that Blake was delving so deeply into his family's past, unearthing long-buried secrets and revisiting wounds that I wasn't even certain he had wanted to open.

Blake's voice rang out, calling my name again. This time, his features softened into a sweet smile, and those charming dimples made a fleeting appearance. I couldn't help but be curious about what he wanted.

"Yes?" I enquired, my voice carrying a hint of suspicion as I looked at him with a raised eyebrow.

"Could you pass me the next one?" he asked, his voice laced with a delightful mix of charm. I looked at the box next to me on the table and back to him across the room.

"No, you lazy git," I replied with a laugh and lifted the journal in front of my face.

Blake let out an exaggerated groan. He pulled himself up from the sofa, stretching up to the ceiling and adopting a faux scowl. As he reached for the next entry in the box he pulled an ugly face.

I bobbed my tongue out in response.

Blake's blue eyes held mine for a second and my heart did a small flip that I tried to ignore. 

"if you do that again..." He trailed off holding up his hands in a scissor gesture. A faint stubble graced his jaw now and I couldn't help but notice that it made him look even more attractive.

He walked back to the sofa and I  gave Blake one last glance as he walked back to the sofa before looking down at the next entry.

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