ishq kavita

Chapter 14: Daneen

I was engaged, with a guy I never thought I would. It has been a month straight and I haven't seen him. He came around a few days after the engagement but I told him I would be busy with my exams. He took my consent to text and we have been chit chatting a little through text. as if it wasnt the only distraction I needed.

It has been a havoc in our house with wedding preparations. The date has been finalised two weeks since today and anyone is home barely. they are  always out for the shopping and getting everything done. while I am stuck here, in my pajamas , nose between books all day.  Rumi comes over occasionally for group study with Aliyan, a guy in same major as us. we are not very close but we are friends and hang out sometimes in university. he is also brilliantly smart and has a lot of references, hence his availability.

"Dina, did you read all these classic literatures?" He asks me. He wears a very big framed glass around his face which looks good on him.
"Yeah, I did. I have been reading all these books. highlighting important shit around." I say, highlighting one more line from the book.
"Too bad. My brother was in the Professor's good list and he used to provide him with all the notes related to these. I brought them here today. thought we could go over them together." he says, stuffing the file back in his bag.
"wait wait. dont put them back! Maybe someone else can accept your help, huh?" a girl in uni liked Aliyan. She was very annoying to be very honest. He didn't like her. Or so he said.
"It's not like that, you guys. stop bickering. I don't even like her, she isn't even my type." a blush creeps over his face but the disgusting expression doesn't go away. I laugh.
"Oooh, not your type? who's your type then, Aliyan?" Rumi interjects. we always ended up having conversations like this when we group studied. that's why i didn't like them as much.
"someone like Dina." what? he smiles and then looks at me, "not you ofcourse, you are so much of a nerd and don't even take interest in normal human beings functions and events, kinda boring type. but i would want to be with someone who has your type of sense in organizing things and maintaining a balance." he rolls his eyes and sighs. "besides, you are someone else's type now, huh. bride to bee??" it was my turn to feel hot and suffocated. he hasnt texted since days and i was worried sick. not because, he was in some trouble, but because he didnt reach out when i know Ravi and he, they both are involved in wedding preps together.

"Daneen." smell of cinnamon type of perfume fills my nose and the environment feels hotter. he is leaning against the door frame, with arms crossed infront of his chest, he is wearing a black polo shirt that doesnt do justice to me because his toned muscles seem angry. when i dont say something for a while and everyone is silent, Rumi attempts to break it. "Hi, Zarar..bhai. join us. we were just studying."
he glares at me, whats wrong with him? i stand up and walk to him.
"wont you introduce us, jaan?" Jaan? what the hell? When did we ever decide that title??? my whole body is heated and I can feel my ears were red too from the upper corner, they feel hot too.
I cleared my throat. "uh, guys. my fiance-"
"husband to be." I gulp down something called pride. okay, but that didn't have to be announced with a rude tone like that. Why was he in a bad mood?
"and, these are my friends. Rumaisah and Aliyan."
"friends." he says while shooting a disgusted look at Aliyan.
it hits me then. was he jealous? lol, this guy. i could enjoy this.

"ill be back. you guys continue." i step out of my room and he follows me until we have reached kitchen. i turn around and gasp.

he takes two steps towards me and he is so close, all i can sense and feel is him. this is going to drive me crazy.
"what ... are you doing?" i nearly whisper. his hands are by the either side me on the counters and i was trapped between him and the slabs.
"do you like him?" he was jealous.
"i didnt take you for a jealous prick." i didnt know where all the confidence was coming from.
he smirks. "answer the question."
"he is just a friend." i huff.  he was so close. i put my hands on his toned chest and push him away. he lets me. i basically run over to the dispencer and gulp down water. no need to offer him.

"why are you here?"
"to see you ofcourse." liar. i roll my eyes. and wait for him to ambush the truth.
"i want you to come with me."
"i am not going anywhere with you."
"Daneen, I came here to pick you up. dress up and let's go." I was wearing a perfectly fine coord set. I was not dressing up for him.
"i have to study."
"you didnt even ask me where i want to take you."
"doesnt matter. i dont want to go."
"fine. ill buy whichever bridal dress i want you to wear. no objections at the time then." oh, bridal dress. i still wasnt over the fact that i was getting married. in no less than two weeks. my arrogant ass huffs past him. "fine. do whatever you want."
He is still standing beside the counter.
"what if we take your sister along? will you go then?" his arms are crossed on his chest. he looks so beautiful i can't look.
"i am not going anywhere with you and can take your rude ass back home." I feel my cheeks heat at the insult I threw at him. but he smirks.
"Are you mad at me?"
"why would i be?"
"because I ruined your little tea party, which by the way you were enjoying very much. all giggling and blushing." what? How long has he been in my house, observing me? i need to tell the security to not let him in without consent next time.

"I wasn't giggling and blushing. and i am not providing any explanations to you. leave." his eyes darken.
He takes a step towards me. I take a step back until I am against the dispenser. He is so close, yet again, and I can't think. He drives me crazy, like I am drunk. "i am not leaving until that chashmatoo leaves."
Why does he have to be like this?

"We were studying."
"i am staying." i cant let him stay. too much of a distraction.
"he is just a friend. what's your problem? i don't like him like that." he inches closer and a little gasp leaves my mouth. I bite my lip and his gaze lingers on my lips. Suddenly, I wanted to bite him too. What is he doing to me?
"dont like him like that? does that mean you like in anyway? you wont go anywhere with your husband to be, but you can stay home with a guy friend who looks at you all the time while you laugh and giggle and bite that lip of yours?" He was angry. I could feel it in the way his muscles pulsed. He was controlling himself.

I put my hands on his chest and pushed him back. and I stare at him. There were a lot of things I could say right now, but he has left me breathless.

"you can kick your friends out and tell them you are leaving. if you choose not to leave, thats on you. i bought ice cream for you. we can eat that together and then i'll leave." i blink back my tears. i didnt know why i was on the verge of tears.

"if you glare at him, ill kick you out too." i say, pushing the loose hair strabd behind the ear.

he holds his hands up high and quietly returns to the lounge.