Heartbound Part Two (Lovestruck Series)

Day 2.2 | E/N

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Day 2. | E/N

WALANG NAGAWA ANG pride ni Elias sa katawan niya. With a grunt, he curls back in his bed in the room his sister reserved for him in her house. His body is sore all over, probably from driving for more than three hours in the rain yesterday. He can't leave even if he wanted to.

Earlier, he wanted to tell Ate that he can go back to his unit and take care of himself, pero wala, tumiklop siya. He doesn't know if it's because he's too sick more than he would admit, or hindi lang talaga niya nakaugalian na kumontra at sumagot sa nakatatandang kapatid niya. So, now, he can't do anything but stay put and remind himself to eat or else he would receive an earful when Ate gets home.

He doesn't know why he messaged Ate last night. He could have just driven himself home. After all, the unit he shares with his cousins is nearer than Ate's house. Kyla would have asked him a ton of questions, but he could have just shut the door to his room and ignored all of it. Wala naman silang magagawa ni Zakarias kapag hindi siya umimik.

He doesn't know why he reached out to Ate, knowing that their relationship is not exactly in a good place for a few weeks now. He doesn't know what difference it makes, between sleeping here in this room that only exists because Ate had him in mind when the house was being built, and sleeping elsewhere. Kahit saan siya matulog, may sakit pa rin naman siya. It's so confusing to him how families work.

Elias knows he can't stay mad at her forever, and he doesn't want to. He has also considered that maybe he's being unfair to his sister who doesn't know anything about what happened between him and Serena. What he doesn't understand, though, is how Ate can keep being kind to their Dad.

Huh. Maybe he has it all wrong. Maybe he's not mad at his sister, but he's mad at the fact that she's not as angry as he is towards their father. She has every right to spite Dad, but she chooses not to. Elias remembers the violent words Dad hurled her way when they found out that she's pregnant with Zoa. Dad didn't exactly say that he's disowning her, but given the way he treated her for months, parang ganoon na rin ang nangyari. It was Mama who glued the family together. No wonder why they were in shambles immediately after she left home.

Families. So complicated.

Elias just woke up from a 30-minute nap after having breakfast. He wants to get up and study, knowing that skipping today's classes is going to cost him in the near future, but his eyelids refuse to stay up. He drags himself to the bathroom and takes a quick warm rinse, hoping that it will wake him up. He puts on a sweater, one of the few articles of clothing he has in his closet here, before curling back to bed.

He doesn't know what to do now that he's no longer sleepy, so he reaches for his phone again, and turns back to the bad habit that would take some time to unlearn. He goes searching for Nadi again, typing her name over and over on the message field, hitting the backspace button every time he's done. He's careful not to send her a message by mistake. Bakit pa? He doesn't know what to say. He doesn't have a reason to talk to her. Telling Nadi that he's messaging because he misses talking to her wouldn't be fair to her.

Sometime in the middle of composing messages and never sending them, his lids give up and he falls asleep. He wakes up again an hour past his lunch time. He goes downstairs to fix himself something to eat so he can drink his medicines. He can barely keep his eyes open but he still bothers to check if, by some miracle, Nadi sent him a message. She did not. She hasn't even read the last text he sent her.