Baby Steps-My Littlespace Journey

Impressive Level of Stupidity

I was one of the original members of a discord server for a fantasy roleplay type of thing. I haven't been active on it in a long time, to be honest, but I was a mod. Was.

I was in little space talking to a potential caregiver candidate when I saw that someone messaged that they were confused as to why they were deafened. There's typically no good reason for someone to be deafened on discord, so I undeafened them. No big deal, right?

Wrong.

See, in the end, the other mods said that I didn't actually do anything wrong, but still proceeded to be condescending towards me. They told me not to interfere in things that I don't understand, which I would get if they said it in a polite way. They told me to mind my business and not stick my nose where it doesn't belong. Then they made us go one by one explaining our side of the story which would be great if it wasn't midnight. I have college classes in the morning. Oh, but that's what got me the most. They said "then you shouldn't have done anything in the first place." No duh.

At this point, I was fuming. I was like, why in the world should I have to put up with this? Ripped out of my littlespace, condescended for no reason, and I didn't even say anything particularly harmful. Even when I'm trying to be mean, it never comes across that way. So I reluctantly left the server.

I started crying. At this point, I don't think the caregiver knew what to do besides just try to cheer me up and get me to go to bed. He tried his best. Honestly, that's all that matters.

I messaged some of my friends on the server and explained that maybe I was childish, maybe I was in the wrong as well, but I was not going to let myself be treated like that. I have way better things to do. Like college. I'm not gonna deal with a bunch of immature kids. I don't honestly know how old they are, but they're either young and dumb or not young and dumber. Maybe they actually thought that they weren't being disrespectful. Maybe they thought they were in the right. But from my perspective, they were rude and childish.

I wrote this because I can't sleep yet. I wanted to get my emotions and account written down so that hopefully I can feel better. I don't want people to agree and get angry for me; this is only one account of the events. However, now you might understand my anxiety and frustration with the situation. I had emotional attachments to that server. Now, I'm dead set on not joining back.

I hope that something like this doesn't happen to you. Have a good day. Treat yourself well; you deserve it.
XOXO