INAYAT

Not so worried.

Dil sambhal ja Zara
Phir mohabbat Karne chla hain tu

The next day

The next morning , I wake up a bit earlier than usual . I didn't intend to but as my eyes opened and I saw the early morning darkness out there , I got intrigued and decided to get up . I freshened up and wore a simple blue cotton kurti . I went downstairs and quietly prepared tea for myself. It was 5:30 am , mom will probably wake up after sometime. I didn't want to disturb anyone so I quietly went upstairs to his room .

He was still sleeping like a baby , hugging his pillow close to him . dekh lijiye yeh hain the feared DGP of Delhi , I thought and smiled a little . I went to the balcony with my tea . there was still time in sunrise , the fresh morning breeze felt good .

The autumn has started , the summers are ending . the cold winter is coming , I don't know how many storms and waves of shock it will bring with it . I still can't process the information I was given yesterday about my real family . it feels like my whole life was a facade, now that facade has been removed and I have to come face to face to the twisted reality . does that family know they have a granddaughter? Did they even try to find out ? Or do they hate abbu so much that after killing him they want no connection to anybody related to him ? .again , there are so many questions that I still don't have any answers to . the burnt cherry on top is I can't do anything about it , I have to be patient and dependent on Siddharth for this. A wrong step of mine and I will be killed .

I take a sip of my tea . this adrak wali chai , has been the only constant in my life . my best source of relaxation and bits of happiness that I get. I stare down at the endless lawn . the large trees cover the boundaries and dark forest starts . this room's balcony is on the backside of the house that is why I get this peaceful view, I didn't get to enjoy this beautiful view till now .

I observe carefully and see a large door at the start of the forests , it must be for safety because of wild animals that roam around in the forest . there are quite a lot of guards roaming around that area. Actually , there are many guards that roam around in every corner of this mansion . it isn't that surprising considering the position that dad and chachu ji and mr. Strange husband hold in the country. it still scares me sometimes when I see those bodyguards with guns . it reminds me of that night. I still remember it , all the men there and even Rani had guns with them . it reminds me of that helplessness I felt that night. If he hadn't gone there on that mission that night , I don't know...............what would have happened to me.

Thinking about that night makes my heart race faster, in a bad way. I mostly avoid thinking about the past. i shut my brain up and try to focus on work . it mostly works too . but I know that the past still has a hard grip on my present and future, no matter how much I try to forget it .

Voh raate toh beet gayi ,
Lekin joh zakm voh chod ke gayi unhe kaise bhule.

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The week went on normally without any shocks or storms after that peaceful morning . I actually started waking up early everyday , just to get that peaceful start . or else it always started with that bear of a man making thousands of excuses to not wake up . yes , I wake him up everyday because if I don't , I have to roam around the roam and turn off thousands of his alarms and I always get a bad headache after that so I just simply go and threaten him , first he makes his usual pouts and excuses then after some tries when I get angry and stay silent then he opens his eyes and gets up with a big smile on his face . this is so strange, like who wakes up with that big of a smile , I always wake up with a scowl on my face and need 1 hour to make my mind work . I hate waking up . I like to sleep but unfortunately most of my nights are sleepless.