Safely // M.C.

"I've given up on myself, too." (20)

Can I just say! 20 freaking chapters already! This is intense! I can't believe I've written 20 Chapters. This may be the first book that I finish! OMG!

Michael's POV:

I opened my eyes to find myself laying in a bed next to Luke. I rubbed my tired eyes before sitting up. Calum and Ashton sat at the table, eating some cereal and bagels. I stood and looked at my phone. I then texted Juli.

To Juli: Hello, beautiful. I have a show tonight and some interviews, won't be able to text anytime after 12 until 11 tonight. Sorry baby. x

She didn't respond. She was probably sleeping. I then walked into the bathroom and took a long shower. I needed it, I was still really tense from the flight and I didn't really sleep well without her. After that, I wore Ashton's Led Zeppelin shirt and my black jeans with my Converse.

I'm really tired, and my eyelids are so heavy. Calum met me in the bathroom, he stood at the sink and fixed his hair whilst I put on the clothes and fixed my hair as well.

"You miss her, bro?" He asked, I nodded and he hugged me. I really missed her. I needed to see her, but I knew she was over 7,000 miles away from me.

After we were finished, we all piled into the van and drove to the giant building. It was huge, when we arrived we went inside and then found the floor that we needed to go to. We took a seat on the couch and the interviewer began. Camera's turned on and he started the questions.

"Hello, 5 Seconds of Summer are here." The interview said, we all cheered. I smiled, trying to act happy.

"Welcome guys to America." He said. Luke spoke first and then Ashton. I just sat there silently.

"You've obviously been getting all the girl attention. Any of you got girlfriends?" Should I tell them about Julianne. I think it's time.

"Yes. I do. Her name is Julianne. She's great." I said, the other boys grew quiet and I felt wonderful with myself.

"Well, I'm glad that you're happy." The interviewer said.

After the interviews finished, we had a show to do. Our first show in front of more than 10,000 people. I was so nervous.

I gripped my guitar from my neck and began playing as we walked onto the stage. Fans screamed from the audience.

A lump clogged my throat, but I soon swallowed it. We started to play the songs and then the fans kept screaming.

-After the show-

I collapsed onto the bed and scrolled through Twitter on my phone before texting Juli.

To Juli: Hey baby. Did you see the interview today? x

From Juli: Yes. Are you sure you want to confirm the fact that we're together?

I could practically see the nervousness on her face from here. I quickly called her. She answered quietly.

"Hello?" She said, I smiled hearing her voice.

"Hi, baby." I answered.

"How are you?" She sounded like she was about to die. Her voice all cracky and dry.

"Good. What about you?" I asked, knowing exactly what she was going to say.

"I feel so, lonely. I'm lonely Michael. I've been sitting here all day worrying about you and it sucks." Tears wept from her face. I could hear her shaky voice as they were there.

"I know baby. I miss you so much." I said, trying to keep back the tears about to leave my eyes.

"I wanna let go. I wanna give in, I know it's only been two days and it's already killing me Michael. Worrying about you every single day, it kills me."

"Baby, don't give in to this. You're strong. You can get though this. But, if you wanna give up just tell me." I said, knowing exactly that she was going to.

"I give up Michael." Tears now falling down my face and hers. I knew it was over. I'd lost something so important in my life.

"Okay, Okay. That's okay. I understand why you want to do that."

"Michael. I'm sorry and I love you, but I can't just sit here and wait for you to come home when you're not going too." Her voice shook harder.

"Darli--" I caught myself, "Julianne. I know that it sucks. And I know that you're pissed at the world. I know. But being pissed at the world and yourself is not going to fix anything. I promise." I said, before I heard her cry into the phone.

"Goodbye, Michael." She whispered through the sobs. Hearing those words from her killed me.

"Goodbye Julianne." I whispered before we hung up. When we did, I exploded. I cried harder than I've ever cried and looked at her in the background of my phone.

I stood off the bed and walked into the bathroom. I cried hard and slid down the door. The boys all walked into the room and saw. They all gathered around my closely.

"What happened?" They all asked.

"She broke it off. She gave up on me. And now, I've gave up on me too." I whispered, sobbing into them all. They all hugged me. This tour officially sucks.