HIS PRETENSE BRIDE

CHAPTER 39

Alexa's POV

It's been a month and a few days since we got married.

A month and a few days since I signed that contract I've been unwilling to sign.

A month and a few days since my life's changed for good.

On some days, I sit alone and wonder how I came to be here. I'm yet to fully comprehend it all and wrap my head around how much my life's changed. A month ago feels like a lifeline ago and I guess that should be a good thing.

But I'm worried.

It occurred to me a few days ago, when we were talking about birthdays, that Xander's birthday is in a few months. If I don't have a child in ten months, I'm going to fail him. And I can't fail him. Eva doesn't get to win. She can't win this.

We've been intimate frequently but now, I'm making sure to check out my ovulation period. I have less than a month to be pregnant and I want to make sure I'm pregnant. The thought of being pregnant should terrify me–and it does—but I also want to bring a child to the world. I'm eager to hold my baby and help Xander fulfill his dreams. 

I finish my iced coffee and summon Doris, one of the maids to help me clear out the table. I have brunch in a few minutes with Sofia at one of the classiest restaurants in town. She's been dying to check it out and since Dave is too busy to go with her, she asked me to come with her. 

I almost forgot about it. I have taken a liking to reading novels. I guess that is what happens when you are left alone in a huge house with next to nothing to do. I haven't been so idle in a long time. Not doing anything makes me anxious. So, I have to constantly do things. Be on my feet, working. 

Over the past month, I've taken a liking to gardening and reading books. The first one is spurred by my interest for the beautiful garden in the house while the last one is spurred by Tina, our housekeeper. I've caught her reading a few times and since I've taken a sudden liking to it, it's all I want to do.

I spent the whole of last night trying to finish a book. It wasn't until I finished that I finally slept which prompted me into waking up late. I guess it won't be like that when Xander returns from his business trip.

He's been gone for a few days now and I miss him so much. We've been texting, but I try not to disturb him by coming out needy. I should be anything but needy.

Grabbing my phone, I head up to my room. It's clean the way I left but I can't help knowing if Xander is around, his thing will be littering all over. That makes me smile as I make my way to the closet to select my outfit for the day before Sofia has my head. 

I'm not sure when Xander is returning but I want to be prepared for him. I don't know why I can't stop thinking of him.

I eye my dresses collection and sneer. It's sunny and the last thing I want to get is sunburn. Knowing the restaurant we are going to is exquisite, I eye the blue jumpsuit that stands out on my cloth rack. It's a ruffled, one shoulder style and it can't be any perfect than it is.

I reach for it with a pair of red heels and lipstick. After changing into my dress, I settle down in front of my vanity table to do my make up, style my air and accessorize.  After an hour, I am finally done. 

I smack my lips as I stare at the stunning face of the woman in the mirror. My aunt won't believe it when she sees me. I look so beautiful and even I know it. 

I lather my skin with sunscreen, grab a pair of nice shades with my purse. I pick up my phone to put in purse when it dings in my hand. My lips tugs up at the text from Sofia telling me that she is around.